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"thank you, hero...♪"
#SOBS SOBS SOBS#just finished meteor impact yeag........#it was Really good i loved it so much !!!!!!#honestly i expected a little more on the battle against the sea god bc they just for being late#but its not the first time the student council use the dreamfes rules to their advantage so makes sense with their way of acting#the moment when kanata began singing and everyone shut up 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#but god yeah i really loved meteor impact one of my fave stories fr#def my second fave reminiscence story and its not the first only bc im a knightsp and checkmate exists#well. time to read chiakana fics now#*they just lost for being late#<- me and my bad habit of eating words on my sentences but im not rewriting all this
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heyyyy can i request a jungwoo one?
where they both in a relationship, the reader is in college and struggling af with her academics, and jungwoo (with his idol schedule as we know it) as an older and bigger person always supports and is reliable AND OF COURSE always be the one to ease reader's mind/feeling LIKE he really is the one that reader needed no one else because everything feels enough when it comes to him.
sorry if this sounds too desperate im just so deep in the black hole of my academics like it's sucking the soul of mine i know i need to get a life. anywaaaay big big thanks for opening the request bar im praying for your happiness and bright days ahead <3
REQUEST All you need is a shoulder to cry on when college gets tough. Jungwoo's more than willing to be the one you need to feel at ease.
PAIRING kim jungwoo x gender neutral!reader
GENRE established relationship, angst, comfort
WORD COUNT 1.3k
WARNINGS bad eating and working habits, not proofread!
AUTHOR’S NOTE this was requested when i took a break from writing :( i'm so sorry it took me so long to get to it, lovely. i really hope you're doing better now & i'm rooting for you <3
MASTERLIST
The consistent hum from the air conditioning is the only noise you can barely tolerate during your study session; anything above fifty decibels will irritate you. You don’t realize you’ve been scrutinizing the same word— not even a sentence— over and over again until you’ve read it for the seventh time in 10 minutes. Only then do you notice how empty you feel, nothing but acid and anxiety from this morning’s caffeine bubbling in your stomach. It’s irritating how your eyes start drying themselves too.
You could use a break, but you don't think you deserve it; you didn’t hit your goal for the hour. (In your current capacity, you can’t register that it’s hopeless to juice anything out when there’s nothing to wring in the first place.)
On the right end of your desk are your messily stacked test papers from professors who refuse to hold their quizzes online, something about not being tech-savvy enough to do so. You initially ignored the scores when you tossed them aside. But the mind wishes to blow your final grain of self-esteem away by zeroing on the fact that you had failed your most recent exam by two points. Not shoving them in a random folder to hide them out of sight was your past self’s mistake.
Apparently, you haven’t learned your lesson with curious eyes because you glance over your left shoulder, desperate to distract yourself from your pitiful attempt to survive college. You vaguely see the ever growing pile of laundry that you haven’t had the time to tend to. Has it… always been that tall? Why does it only bother you now when it’s been that way for the whole week?
No tears are coming out, even if you actually want them to. At this moment, there’s nothing more annoying than that.
“Fuck,” you rub your eyes as you shut your laptop closed, “unrealistic goals be damned.” You mumble dryly to yourself before diving into your unmade bed; you can’t recall the last time it was made. It’s second to feeling like heaven when your head hits the softness of your pillow. First is when you’re with your boyfriend. To you, anywhere with Jungwoo is heaven on earth.
Speaking of which, you could really use his company right now.
Your hand blindly fishes your phone out of the comforter’s creases to check the time. When you finally feel a rectangular block, you lazily turn your head left to face the glowing screen. Looking right back at you is a photo of you and Jungwoo, the latter grinning at you fondly after you surprised him with a bouquet of flowers to commemorate his final emcee gig. 11:39PM. He won’t be home until one in the morning or so.
The hours that pass feel closer to seven than two, your growling stomach and prodding headache not allowing you to get any proper rest. In the distance, you finally hear beeping and buzzing from the front door’s electronic lock followed by socked footfalls towards your room. Your head is telling you to welcome him properly, but your heart is grounding you into the mattress. The hinges on the door squeak.
When Jungwoo’s eyes drop to your sprawled figure, he thinks you’re asleep. He carefully caresses your arm with his thumb to wake you up quietly, knowing how you feel after a rough, monotonous day of studying and intaking more information than one can humanely process. Your partner fully understands what it’s like to give his all until there’s nothing left for himself; you’re aware he’s doing his best to prevent that from happening to you too. Still face-down on the cushion, you pull your arm away from his touch to hold it properly. He gladly accepts, more than pleased to caress that instead.
“The kitchen looks abandoned. Have you eaten anything?” When he speaks, it’s not abrupt, rather like a cloud drifting into the intimate space you two share.
Your muffled 'no' reaches no one’s ears, not even your own. It’s awkward, and a bit painful on your unstretched joints, to pull you up by the arm so he asks you if you can shift to a sitting position. You don’t want to burden him either with the work of flipping your whole body; he physically exerted himself the whole day, you don’t need to add to that. You push yourself up from your lying position and flop on the edge of the bed.
“Haven’t eaten since…” You pause. You hate that you have to think about it. “Last night. I only had time to grab a bottle of coffee from the fridge earlier.”
Jungwoo hides his exasperated expression as soon as it appears, intertwining both his hands with yours again. “I know it’s not the right time to lecture you because it’s the last thing we want right now. But you really can’t keep doing this to yourself.”
You start feeling guilty even though that’s opposite his intention. The idea of accidentally reopening Jungwoo’s old wounds is enough motivation to want to break out of your harmful work ethics. He sighs at your lack of response and attention, but it’s not one of irritation.
Pulling you up to stand, he gives you a proper warm hug. That was the key to release your frustrated teardrops from earlier. They keep going and going, and your blubbering intensifies because you know it’ll be hard to stop. “Why isn’t my best enough?”
He says nothing about how your tears seep into his shirt, just holding you closer. “You’re trying. That is enough.”
Jungwoo lets you cry and cry and cling onto him like your life depends on it; he’s unaware that he’s almost right on the money. You stopped attempting to speak completely because it’ll reset any progress you’ve made trying to manage your crying. His arms feel right cradling you; if you could, you’d stay in them forever. Your lover rubs your back to get those final sobs out of your system.
“How’re we feeling now? Better?” He gently asks, drying the remaining tears on your cheeks with his knuckles. You nod, still wary of using your voice, worried that there are still stray tears somewhere inside of you.
He rests you down back on the bed and joins you this time. Your head drops on his shoulder out of exhaustion. “I’ll order us some food. You want anything in particular?”
“I’m okay with whatever.” You mumble wetly, your vision focused on your interlaced fingers. Jungwoo’s other hand is busy, fiddling on his phone. You nudge him softly with your shoulder, he hums in question.
You rest your chin on the curve of his shoulder to admire his barefaced side profile. “You promised you’d let me pay the next time we order.”
Your boyfriend raises his eyebrow in faux confusion and turns his neck dramatically to face you. The proximity makes his teasing front falter slightly with a peeking grin. “Did I? I don’t remember. Oh well, next time then!” He promises that every time. And every time, he says he means it. (He never does).
Jungwoo attempts to set the table up to the best of his abilities. You tried helping him out but he shooed you away, forcing you on the dining chair. Before the meal, he calls for your attention. “We don’t have to talk about it now. I just wanted to say that breaks aren’t earned, okay? You’re doing great, even if you think otherwise.”
It’ll take some time to get that through your head, he knows that, but you give him a small smile. “I’ll believe you.”
Over your too-late-to-be-dinner and too-early-to-be-breakfast meal— fully paid for by him, again— Jungwoo tells you how his day went, including his members’ usual shenanigans during rehearsals. He’ll never rush you to talk about what’s been going on because he respects the pace you prefer to go on; he’s confident you’ll tell him when you’re ready, you always do.
Right now, you just need him and he’ll always be there to ease you back on track, every step of the way.
#forgive my sloppy writing#nct#nct 127#jungwoo x reader#kim jungwoo x reader#nct jungwoo x reader#nct x reader#nct 127 x reader#nct imagines#jungwoo imagines
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my apologies if this is too simple or juvenile or personal a question but HOW did you become such a proficient writer? and do you have any tips or pointers to keep in mind? i know you must do a lot of reading and a lot of writing, but your skill is just incredible to me. your prose!! your cadence!! when we get around to talking about it is genuinely one of the best things i've ever read and i'd eat it if i could!!!
this ask was so sweet thank you!! rly made my day when i needed a boost. Hope you don’t mind i took a couple days to think about it cause no one’s ever asked me for writing advice before
idk how i became a “proficient” writer bc I really don’t write that much. something about my fic gave me brainworms and i went into overdrive but that’s…not my usual MO. which is why it’s weird for me too. admittedly i am studying english/creative writing as my second major at uni, but i haven’t learned anything in any of my classes you couldn’t learn by just reading and writing on your own. honestly i should’ve stuck with my IR major instead, i find structured cw classes a complete waste of time. but here are some little tips i thought of that would’ve helped ME:
This is more a “do as I say not as I do” because I’m really bad at habits like this, but keep a diary. You can write about the big events (went to the store, did homework, got laid etc.) but that’s boring—focus on the details (watched someone at west side market throw a glass bottle of olives at a rat, broke a pen and permanently stained my dorm desk and won’t get my deposit back which pissed me off because I move out in a week, this guy’s breath smelled like lemon pledge and it made me wonder if he drank window cleaner before kissing me etc.). Real life is really interesting! How can you write about interesting real life in an interesting way? It’s a good way to practice. You don’t have to do a big reflection at the end of the day or anything. It’s okay to jot down something you saw & then immediately forget about it. It’s the act of figuring out how to translate life into words that’s important
If you type, learn how to type FAST. This is just my experience, but I think typing faster makes your cadence, clause length, dialogue, IDEAS flow better/more naturally. We think in words/sentences, not letters.
This is a super lame tip that’ll make you roll your eyes, but read poetry. Poetry is all about how words/ideas/images sound and interact with each other. Don’t get hung up on one poet—im not really recommending any for precisely this reason—read poetry you love (for me, Ada Limón, Jack Kerouac, Frank O’Hara, ghazals etc) AND read poetry you hate (for me, Rupi Kaur, Emily Dickinson, Whitman, etc)! Read all genres you can get your hands on. (I think there are like “great poetry anthologies” you can find for free online if u don’t know where to start. Also you can’t go wrong with subscribing to/reading a variety magazine like the NYer. It’s pretentious but it exposes you to all kinds of weird topics, ways of writing about them, etc.) Figure out how certain combinations of words and punctuations make you FEEL, and why, and why the writer chose (or not) to make you feel that way. Figure out which literary sounds you like and which ones you don’t. For me, i figured out that I REALLY like alliteration, comma splices, zeugmas, the rule of three, and
“he’s [verb]ing again… yeah compacflt’s characters are [verb]ing again… big shocker”
If you have an idea for a piece, figure out what it is you really want to get out of it—to say something? to experiment with a different style? to see your fav characters do something? to have fun?—and then figure out how, on a technical level, you should write to match that goal (this is where the poetry training comes in handy). If you’re just writing to have fun, don’t listen to any writing advice (incl. mine), because most of it is bullshit and over-generalized and will make you feel bad about yourself. Just take the advice that you think will work for what YOURE trying to write.
But if you’re writing to explore some political idea, then you should think about HOW to best write about that idea. What would be a convincing story/allegory/scene to engage with this idea vs. not convincing. I talk on this blog all the time about how disappointed I am that my very-adult-grown-up attempt to deal with the dynamic of “immovable internalized homophobia vs unstoppable falling in love anyway” is rendered a little childish/immature by some pretty unconvincing plot points like the characters buying a house together—I really should have considered how that plot point would interact with the characterizations I’d built already (hint: poorly). You can think of writing as kind of a military structure if that helps—you have strategy on the overarching campaign (plot/character growth/allegory/theme) level, the battle (scene that advances the above) level, and the tactical (sentence-level construction/syntax/wording) level. They all have to work together. If a scene is failing to properly engage with the idea you’re trying to convey, you’re losing a battle that will weaken the overarching campaign. Same thing if you choose a weird word in a sentence/write in a style or tone that’s weirdly out of place with your idea—it makes your engagement with the theme/idea less convincing. just try to be purposeful and consider your strategy on all levels of your work as you’re writing it!! At the very least it’ll make editing easier lol.
But then again when I read my own writing from just a couple months ago I cringe out of my skin, so like—just also accept that it’s a process and we’re all just making it up as we go along. Be proud of being embarrassed of your old work, because it means you’re growing. Own that shit. When I finished writing WWGATTAI i thought it was the best thing I’d ever written, and maybe it was. But since the day I finished working on it, it’s the worst thing I’ve written since then. That’s a great feeling. Not to be like writing grindset obviously bc it’s supposed to be fun—but if what you want is to get better at writing, the strategy is to WRITE a whole bunch of shit, and then own your embarrassment about how much you’ve grown since you started. And know you’re still always growing and learning. there should never be any “goals” where skills are concerned 👍🏽
#fake it till u make it#the good part about fiction is all you’re really doing is makin shit up#no rules!!!#fiction is just trying to sell a lie right#so it’s all on a sliding scale of convincability (at least that’s how i judge fiction)#and figuring out how to convince people of your lie is where the art is#anyway.#not top gun#asks#writing tips#idk how to tag this#also i love ao3 because trying to get published traditionally genuinely made me hate writing/MY writing#i have indeed had the cliche 100+ form rejection letters experience#unfortunately writing is also one of those things where you can see it as a competition so easily#(admittedly a small part of why i don’t read other TG fics—i don’t wanna read people doing it better than me😭)#BUT you tailor your experience to have a healthy life. it’s not a competition if you don’t make it one. put yourself first
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91, 90, 67, 64, 61, 48, 38, 25, 23, 11, 10
10. any unusual fears?
i don't have that many fears at awl in general i think but i get so anxious i can't sleep if i have to share a bed w someone i don't like trust aha also i used to be deathly afraid of stingrays as a kid like to the point where vaguely stingray shaped things like. the pool cleaners used to scare me. like id swim in a pool and if i saw this thing
under me i would literally just exit the pool and refuse to get back in until it was removed. idk if im still scared of rays now tho
11. favorite myth?
collapses to my KNEES.... if no one got me the epic of gilgamesh got me. its The story. to me
23. what's popular with the people around you that you can't seem to get behind?
irl its kpop... all my friends r into kpop but i am just not rockin with any of the songs ive heard so far but im honestly ok with this. the ticket prices...... i will stay listening to my established range ty DGFGHJHJK and hmmmmmm i think online it'd be like. dnd or in an extension of that bg3 like im sorry but i just. maybe its not for me
25. do you collect anything?
YES the uhh nano/petit/mini bricks/blocks theyre basically mini legos and way cheaper than lego. ive gotten pretty much every aquatic animal from petit bricks theyre sitting on my shelf i love them :') extremely good activity to do when my hands get twitchy
38. what is your love language?
its definitely physical affection i am thee cuddly bitch of all time. second is words of affirmation tho. why are u asking me this u gay or smth?
48. you get to give a one-sentence note to yourself from a decade ago. what does it say?
kill yourself NOW! im kidding but idkkkkkkkk it might be surprise that i made it another decade or smth. not sure. past me is a bit of a mystery
61. do you believe in/follow any superstitions?
AWAAHHH off the top of my head im blanking bad but i dont eat bananas on lunar new years. or when theres like an exam. neither does the rest of my family. idk why
64. what's the best thing you can cook?
oh wow i love thematic continuation. its banana bread LMFAOO it might just be my favourite thing i can cook though
67. what's your favorite obscure piece of media?
HM i do not consider this obscure but ive literally never met someone else whos into this but the graphic novel/comic series called saga..... literally excellent idk
90. weirdest habit?
hmmmm i don't know whether this counts as a habit but i paint my nails just to pick off the polish otherwise i would probably ruin them altogether. hands need enrichment
91. what's a common misconception people have about you?
at this point i dont even know anymore i got too much stuff im juggling to work out exactly who is perceiving what.. i do think ppl think im smarter than i actually am tho eek
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op i am going to put my thoughts here bc they for sure won’t fit the tags 😭💓
but this fic!! oh my god!! it’s just 🥺🥹 literally those emojis combined 🥺 so soft and so tender and so much love, i’ve said ur writing reminds me of a shoujo anime, op but this one—it’s just, a movie scene, but very specific to those in indie movies that ache and feel almost stolen if anything 🥺 and i just 🥺 ultimate comfort op my heart was tingling 😭
ur writing is so beautiful op!! like i listed down so many lines i really really loved!! (which i’ll share rn) sorry in advance for the rambling!!
a vacuum of stars — taunting in its perpetuity. <- this one omfg when u hit me with this op i was literally like 😦 that’s such a beautiful way to describe things in so few words
and this one too: your fingers in his hair, his footprints in your life. idk what u call it but i’m such a sucker for related words used in a sentence!! like the fingers and the footprints just uGh
and the way you explored satoru’s headspace through this all 🥺 i adore that !! my personal writing style leans towards thoughts/feelings so reading this kind of felt very… homey? something familiar but also entirely different 🥺 and your exploration of his thoughts on all this—love and affection, being cared for and being deserving of it all 🥺 made my heart clench!!!
how he comes home!! op!! the value u place on the home!!: satoru likes to think of your front door as a threshold between realms, a gap between within and without. & how!! he could get used to coming home to reader and i just 🥺
and you dropped so many lil bits n moments of satoru’s realisations too 🥺 and i just ! my heart just !!! every single time i read them i went: oh
food tastes better, satoru has come to realize, when you have someone to eat it with.
cookie jars placed on the highest shelf to give him an excuse to help you reach them,
maybe some sunflowers, something that could rival the brightness of your smile.
it comes to him so easily, when he’s with you; that upturn of his lips, the butterflies in his stomach.
having someone who worries for you is a luxury, satoru has come to realize.
they’re all so powerful bc they’re such small, subtle things but you have a way of magnifying them op 🥹 idk how u do it but it’s just so !!!! i love subtle intimacies and this entire fic was full of it!!!
when he calls reader silly omg 🤧 shut up that is so cute & then it’s even worse when he calls em ‘sleeping beauty’ omfg 😭
i like your take that satoru finds an easy, sweet love w reader 🥺 and that he realises that’s rlly how it’s supposed to be 🥺 mainly bc — i think he’s always been handed all these big, difficult things to handle nskensj and i like how u render his technique weak at the prospect of love 🥺 i just !!
and this bit: “did you… make these?” a pause. ”for me?” + “he can’t possibly be allowed to feel so loved — can he?” made my heart ache!! like he can’t believe it’s true 🥺 like why him? what did he do? (to deserve you?)
and it’s this!!:
maybe it’s more than that, maybe there’s nothing he can say or do; what words could he even begin to use to properly verbalize the emotions he’s feeling right now? how could his touch even begin to measure up to the sweet sensation unfurling in his chest?
his slow realisation that sometimes love is just like that, and there’s nothing to do but feel it, accept it, and hope that whoever he loves knows how he feels and feels it right back 🥺
and the small touches !!! the kiss to his neck !!! when he kisses reader !!! op im melting !!! for real 🥺
i love the reader you made for him here, so tender so loving ! worrying about him always even though he says there’s no need ☹️ and how he receives it !! by trying to fix his bad habits bc reader’s always concerned for him ☹️ and !!! when reader dotes on him i was sniffling !! “You did well” jaisnskdj i think bc he doesn’t get told it enough !!!! and i love exploring that side to him always !! the one that’s babied and handled with care 🥺
and their banter!! u got the perfect balance op 🥺 reader was so tender n loving while still so witty !! n teasing !! in the way satoru is ! and that makes for such good banter uGH i wish i could write like this 🥺
this scene:
”woah there,” satoru chokes out, grinning, desperately hoping you don’t notice the red tint to his ears. ”are you flirting with me? i have a partner, you know.”
a giggle slips from your lips, sleepy and amused. ”oh, do you?” one of your hands goes to cup his cheek, thumb caressing the edge of his jaw as you gaze at him fondly. ”lucky them.”
i love it bc the joking around feels so intimate 🥺
and yeah 🥺 i rlly loved this so much op!! thank u thank u for writing it!!!
i’ll relearn love at our kitchen table ; satoru gojo
synopsis; satoru still doesn’t really know what love is supposed to feel like. but if it means coming home to you, and getting to bask in the warmth of your embrace and the sweet scent of pastries, then maybe it’s fine if it’s a curse.
word count; 4.9k
contents; satoru gojo/reader, gn!reader, satoru gojo vs. the mortifying ordeal of being loved, fluff fluff fluff!!, a hint of angst if you reeeaallyyy squint, gojo’s pov, the babygirlification of satoru gojo, i just think being babied would fix him <3
a/n; i wanted to write something for suguru or shoko but this man is genuinely holding my brain hostage atp so more satoru fluff it is!! physically i could write gojo angst yes but emotionally? imagine the toll…
when satoru steps over the threshold to your apartment, he’s downright exhausted.
a heavy kind of fatigue, a little sickening. the kind that seems to sneak its way into his bones, crawl its way under his skin. dragging him down, down, down.
a yawn slips from his lips.
the mission itself wasn’t too tough — anything is a breeze for satoru gojo, that fact needs no elaboration. this one was just a little more taxing than usual, slightly more important, which means he had to deal with the technicalities of it all. had to listen to the elders go on and on about the importance of discretion, about finishing things swiftly and efficiently, and something else he didn’t stick around long enough to hear.
and the curse? a small fry, really. nothing worth fussing over. but it was annoying, with that irritatingly effective barrier technique. how long did he have to stay inside that goddamn veil before it let him get close enough to land a hit?
satoru doesn’t want to think about it, can’t be bothered to figure it out when all he wants is to collapse into the warm comfort of a soft mattress.
all he knows is that when it finally lifted, the night sky was the only thing he could see. a vacuum of stars — taunting in its perpetuity.
so, with all that being said; to say satoru feels a little worn out might be a bit of an understatement.
hair slightly tousled, eyelids heavy with sleep-deprivation, he slumps against the wall and allows himself to simply breathe. a soft groan flows from his parted lips as he stretches idly, a small respite for his stiff and achy joints, his tired muscles.
it’s been a long day. but satoru still finds it in him to exhale a relieved breath, to drag his blindfold down to his neck and kick off his shoes.
because it’s been a long, long day — but now he’s finally home.
(not just a house, not just an apartment, but a home. a place of comfort and belonging. satoru didn’t think that was a luxury he would ever be able to afford.)
the moment he lets the door close behind him, a particular scent greets him. soothing in its familiarity, the only thing in his life that never seems to change; a blend between fresh laundry, and watered houseplants, and something that smells a bit like honey. maybe even sweeter than usual, though satoru chalks that up to his mind playing tricks on him.
it’s nice. so nice. coming back to something warm and real, a respite from his hectic work. a safe haven of sorts, one that hasn’t been taken from him just yet.
satoru likes to think of your front door as a threshold between realms, a gap between within and without. one is dark in its saturation, plagued by that never-fading smell of iron, while the other is simply warm. sacred in its normalcy.
everything looks just as it should, the same as when he rushed out this morning; a fluffy blanket draped over the couch haphazardly, that soft golden light streaming out from the kitchen, your shoes by the front door.
satoru blinks, drowsily.
wait.
why is the kitchen light still on?
as if his eyes could ever deceive him, satoru rubs the skin under them groggily — blinking once, then twice.
yep, it’s still there — that soft fluorescent glow. a sight he’s come to associate with breakfast and dinner and a mellow kind of love, laughter shared over warm meals made by human hands. food tastes better, satoru has come to realize, when you have someone to eat it with.
ah, but it’s odd. did you forget to turn the lights off? that’s not very like you.
as if possessed by a strange, irresistible longing, his feet carry him to the kitchen in question. undeniably groggy, his uncoordinated steps are riddled with fatigue, but the yearning in his chest compels him to move forward anyway — a kind of yearning he only fully understands when he enters the space, and sees you slumped over the table, a familiar flicker of cursed energy capturing his attention.
you’re asleep.
satoru stills, where he stands by the threshold between the kitchen and the living room.
everything looks the same as always — cookie jars placed on the highest shelf to give him an excuse to help you reach them, origami made from newspapers he never bothers to read anyway, a vase standing proudly on the kitchen counter, stuffed with fresh flowers he bought for you two days ago.
the red roses still haven’t wilted, shining in the blue of the moonlight flickering in. good. they’re pretty, but maybe next time he should get you something more original. maybe some sunflowers, something that could rival the brightness of your smile. do they even sell sunflowers this time of year?
if you were awake, he would ask you, preferring your guidance over google’s. but you're not awake, you’re fast asleep, cheek squished against the kitchen table as you softly snore.
satoru feels his mood lift at the sight alone, and suddenly he doesn’t feel as tired anymore. something soft and almost otherworldly sprouts in his chest, as he takes you in, stepping closer. almost giddy, just to see you up close.
you look so peaceful and relaxed, so content. elbows resting on the table as soft little breaths fall from your lips; he spots a bit of drool on the corner of your bottom lip, gaze fond as he wipes it away with his thumb. he can’t resist the urge to poke your cheek, and it makes you stir ever so slightly — lips curling up into something akin to a sleepy smile.
satoru grins.
(you’re so cute.)
despite his fatigue, he hears himself chuckle, all soft and amused and a little bit lovesick. it comes to him so easily, when he’s with you; that upturn of his lips, the butterflies in his stomach.
satoru is still getting used to it. this cotton candy sweet, light as a feather kind of love. the kind that always feels like spring.
but with every day that passes, the life he has with you becomes a little easier to digest. his future with you becomes a little easier to visualize.
yeah, he thinks. he could get used to this. coming home to you.
a soft smile, as he exhales a somewhat exasperated breath. you really shouldn’t be sleeping out here, though. silly.
satoru leans forward, inching closer to your pretty, sleeping face — he almost feels bad, waking you up like this. but he wants to hear your voice so badly.
so he cups your cheek, cold skin meeting warm, his hands still lingering with the bite of the midnight air. his fingertips tingle, buzzing with the body heat that trickles from your veins to his — one single touch is all it takes for him to soften.
the word that falls from his lips breaks the peaceful silence of the kitchen, breathing life into the moment. whispered into your ear, causing your brows to furrow as you gently slip from sleep’s embrace.
“baby…”
satoru is smiling, when your eyelids flutter open. a sincere smile, reserved for you and his students. bathed in the mellow hue of the kitchen lamp’s illumination, a soft glow curls around the strands of his white hair, a halo of artificial light.
blinking sleepily, you gaze at him in silence. something shines in your eyes, something satoru tentatively recognizes as adoration.
satoru gazes right back at you, with heavy-lidded eyes and a lopsided smile. teasing, lighthearted. thumb smoothing over the apple of your cheek.
he grins, hopelessly endeared. ”hey there, sleeping beauty.”
a yawn tumbles from your lips, and you lift yourself up, leaning into his touch. “toru…” you mumble, voice a little raspy but still oh so sweet.
satoru doesn’t say anything. he simply takes you into his arms, gently, touch so very delicate — as if you’re made of porcelain. and you just let yourself fall into his embrace, while he tucks you under his chin, safe and secure.
it’s warm, he thinks. it feels right. complete, somehow.
and satoru thinks to himself that this must be what love feels like. what it’s supposed to feel like, anyhow, all sweet and light. all good and normal, something you never have to question. a cornerstone.
“you’re back…” you drawl, muffled into his uniform as your arms sneak around his thin waist. bringing him closer.
stroking the back of your head softly, satoru’s chest rumbles as he speaks, voice deep and a little raspy. soothing, a lullaby just for you. “yeah,” he hums. ”were you waiting?”
all you do is nuzzle further into his chest, cheek smooshed right over his heart; breathing out a sleepy little mhm that has him going weak at the knees, lips curling up helplessly.
“i wanted to…” you continue, stretching your arms a little to shrug away the remnants of sleep still clinging to your joints. “but i fell asleep.”
satoru feels you move in his arms, until your jaw settles on top of his shoulder and you press a chaste kiss to his neck. an exhale leaves his lips, something tender in the way his breath wavers.
“welcome home,” is whispered, muffled against his skin. a sentence he never wants to go a single day without hearing. “did the mission go okay?”
satoru plants a kiss on top of your head, speaking in a low tilt, reassuring. “it did. just took a little longer than i thought.” a soft inhale, as he basks in the scent of your shampoo. “i wanted to text you, but the veil blocked my signal. sorry, sweetie.”
another soft yawn, and a shake of your head. “s’ fine, don’t worry,” you murmur. ”i’m just glad you’re okay.”
satoru chuckles. there’s a fondness to it, light. and then something else, something more heavy — it rumbles through his chest, almost like a purr, or a soothing thunderstorm. he can only hope it’s enough to comfort you.
“of course.” he says the words like they’re indisputable, like they’re written down in scriptures old and worn. cradling you in his strong arms, he pulls you closer to his chest. hoping you’ll feel his heartbeat against you, feel that he’s there. “i always am, aren’t i?”
no answer. only a tiny hum, absentminded.
and satoru knows, deep down, that his words don’t mean much. that a part of you is always going to worry over him, no matter how many times he tells you that there’s no need. that he’ll be fine.
the thought makes him feel a bit guilty. a little sick to his stomach, at the thought of being a source of your anxiety, the reason you can’t fall asleep at night.
but he’d be lying if he said it didn’t also make him feel somewhat giddy.
the thought tastes sweet, on his tongue, even though it probably shouldn’t. having someone who worries for you is a luxury, satoru has come to realize. a luxury he has, now, one he hasn’t felt since —
well. that’s neither here nor there.
(“be careful, satoru,” he recalls a kind boy saying.
but that was many, many springs ago.)
“oh, right.”
at the sound of your voice, satoru pulls away ever so slightly, gazing down at you. “hm?”
you take a step back, looking up at him with a tilt of your head. hands still resting securely on his waist, fingertips squeezing at his hips lightly, affectionately. ”have you had anything to eat yet?”
“yeah. got some takeout on my way back.”
satoru expects you to sigh in relief, at his instantaneous answer. you don’t like it when he skips meals, so these days he’s been trying not to do it as much. even though he doesn’t always have the time to eat properly, and even though the sweets he chews on between missions make him lose his appetite. but he makes an honest attempt, for you.
someone worries for him. someone wants him to eat well.
that’s more than enough for satoru gojo.
but you don’t exhale, and you don’t look very relieved, either. you look… disappointed. eyes suddenly glancing down at the floor, lips curled down into a barely noticeable frown.
“oh,” you breathe. “okay. good.”
one second. then two. satoru tilts his head.
“why?” he stops to think. maybe… “did you make something?”
a certain recognition flickers in the depths of your eyes, and satoru thinks he must be right on the money. chewing at your bottom lip a little, you wait a moment before curling your fingers around his wrist — tugging him away from the kitchen table.
satoru follows, pliantly, until you’re standing in front of the fridge.
“well, um… here,” you mumble, somewhat sheepishly. fingers tapping at the handle before pulling it open. “take a look.”
satoru watches as the fridge door opens, slowly.
he blinks.
the first thing he sees is a single slice of strawberry shortcake. the strawberry looks fresh, glittering like a ruby on top of the softly whisked cream — and layers of sponge cake, that look like they’d melt in his mouth.
and that’s not all. there are a wide array of baked treats stuffed into the cramped space, protected by plastic wrapping and containers. everything from cupcakes with too much frosting — just the way he likes them — to chocolate chip cookies that crumble at the corners, satoru never seems to run out of things to look at.
colourful treats, lovingly made and sitting right in front of him. it’s like he’s standing in a patisserie. they almost seem to sparkle, in the peripheral of his vision; glimmering softly, tantalizingly, like something out of a dream.
childish. that’s what nanami and shoko always call him, and he always protests, but — maybe they have a point, after all. satoru certainly feels a little childish, when he realizes his eyes must be wide and bursting with child-like giddiness. a simple kind of joy, at seeing the ample selection in front of him. especially after that tedious mission prevented him from getting any sugar into his system.
”i did my best,” you mutter, sharing the sight with him as your eyes trail over a pretty bag of macarons. ”dunno if they turned out any good, but… i hope you’ll like them.”
satoru’s gaze flits over to you.
he opens his mouth, and then closes it again.
”did you… make these?” a pause. ”for me?”
a blink. you look somewhat confused, nodding stiffly. ”yeah.” who else would they be for?, your eyes seem to say.
for a second, satoru only stares at you. in complete silence, the tired cogs inside his head turning sluggishly as he thinks about the implications of that answer. with a soft flutter, he feels his heartbeat pick up, warming him up from the inside out.
you made them. with your own hands. you made all of these and you did it for him.
for some reason, satoru finds it oddly hard to speak — like someone stuffed a bunch of cupcakes down his throat. it’s weird. usually he can’t seem to stop talking, especially not when he’s with you, but…
something about this is just too tender.
you must have been baking all day. no wonder the apartment smelled sweeter than usual, when he walked in.
as if itching to curl around one of the macarons, his fingers twitch, but satoru gulps and keeps them still. he wants to say something, anything, wants to thank you or ask why you’d spend so much of yourself on him, but satoru only stays silent.
and maybe it’s because he’s tired. maybe he’s just a little caught off guard. usually this wouldn’t be that hard to handle — he could just throw himself on you and shower you in kisses, show his appreciation with a flurry of dramatics and declarations of love.
but right now there seems to be a disconnect, between satoru’s mind and body. maybe the mission drained him more than he realized. or maybe it’s more than that, maybe there’s nothing he can say or do; what words could he even begin to use to properly verbalize the emotions he’s feeling right now? how could his touch even begin to measure up to the sweet sensation unfurling in his chest?
the silence doesn’t last long. as satoru stands there and spirals, you speak up, most likely chalking it up to him being too sleepy to react.
”this mission was especially rough, right?” you begin, with a soft tilt of your head. a smile curls its way onto your lips, proud and sweet. sweeter than everything in the fridge combined.
one step, then two. you inch closer to him, until there’s almost no space between you — standing on your tiptoes, one hand on his shoulder and the other reaching for his head. smoothing down his tousled hair, fingers tangling themselves between the soft white strands and getting lost in them. and it’s gentle, the way you begin to pat his head, doting.
then you speak. ”you did well.”
and it’s such a simple thing to say. three words, three syllables, but the words just tumble out from your mouth so earnestly that satoru can’t help but still. his breath hitches in his throat, softly, barely noticeable, but it’s there. that surprise.
satoru never knows how to act, when you get like this. patting his head and ruffling his hair like he’s something warm and sweet and worthy of love. something delicate, and not the strongest man on the planet.
it’s so weird. you’re so weird.
(satoru leans into your touch without thinking, allowing his eyes to flutter shut.)
it’s perplexing, this feeling, and the fact that he can’t pinpoint why frustrates him to no end. isn’t this wrong? shouldn’t he be the one ruffling your hair, coddling you?
what formula is he supposed to follow here, exactly? should he tease you? pull away from your touch?
satoru wishes his six eyes could tell him the answer, but they don’t. they’ve never been very good with emotions, with things that aren’t directly tied to his suffering or imminent death.
(so ironic. all these eyes and nothing to see. they failed to see suguru’s silence, back then, and now they fail to see what reaction would please you the most.
really, such a worthless ability to love people with.)
no answer comes to him. so satoru doesn’t tease you, and he doesn’t pull away.
it does feel slightly wrong, though. like this feeling isn’t something he’s supposed to have, there must be some mistake, he can’t possibly be allowed to feel so loved — can he? having you bake him all his favorite treats, run your fingers through his hair. praise him for working hard. really, isn’t he being too coddled?
… but it feels so nice.
satoru suspects that there’s a lot to love he might not fully understand, just yet.
maybe tomorrow, when he’s a little less tired, he can try once again to give you the impression that he’s perfect. that he doesn’t need affection, that he doesn’t crave your support or your touch. that he’s above all that, the strongest, someone for you to depend on.
depend on him, while he depends on no one. that’s the kind of existence satoru gojo is. that’s how it should be, that’s all he knows, but…
ah. it feels really nice when your nails scratch his scalp like that.
and suddenly, that’s all satoru can think. no more pesky what-ifs, or second guessing every good thing he gets. right now, it’s just you and him. your fingers in his hair, his footprints in your life.
satoru allows himself to melt under your touch, almost meekly. leaning down just a little further, to make it easier for you to smooth your hand over his head. he nuzzles into your palm with a happy little exhale, and for some reason he feels sort of bashful.
try as he might, satoru doesn’t manage to successfully shoo the emotion away, so all he can do is hope you don’t take note of it.
and you just continue your onslaught of affection, now ruffling his hair with both your hands, like he’s a big puppy getting cooed over. satoru suspects that you might be getting a little carried away, but he doesn’t stop you. greedy, in the way he wishes your hands would never leave his hair. the way he hopes you’ll never be too far away from him to reach.
”such a hard worker,” you coo, and he feels himself grow flustered. ”my baby deserves so much love.”
”woah there,” satoru chokes out, grinning, desperately hoping you don’t notice the red tint to his ears. ”are you flirting with me? i have a partner, you know.”
a giggle slips from your lips, sleepy and amused. ”oh, do you?” one of your hands goes to cup his cheek, thumb caressing the edge of his jaw as you gaze at him fondly. ”lucky them.”
the grin you’re wearing is awfully bright. soft around the edges in a way that has him speechless, brain malfunctioning ever so slightly. satoru makes a mental note to scrap the sunflower idea — there has to be some brighter flower out there, one that can actually compete with your smile. sunflowers just won’t cut it.
but then you let go, and satoru gets broken out of his lovesick stupor. when your hands leave his skin, his lips curl down into a soft pout — one he rushes to smooth away, before you can notice it.
you step back, failing to stifle a soft bout of laughter — and satoru knows it’s not because you saw the pout, when he realizes that your gaze is glued to his hair. he internally winces when he thinks about how messy it must look, after your little bout of cuteness aggression.
(you really are weird, finding him cute of all things.)
he expects you to tease him a little more, but you don’t, turning away and tapping your fingers on the kitchen counter. ”if i’d known you’d be home this late,” you speak, stealing one last glance at the pastries before closing the fridge. ”then i would’ve waited until tomorrow. so you could eat them fresh.”
an apology rests on satoru’s tongue, but as if sensing it, you rush to reassure him.
”ah, but this is fine too! they should still taste good!” you turn away, muttering. ”… hopefully.”
then you nod to yourself, crossing your arms absentmindedly.
satoru looks at you for a second.
then he steps forward, unable to resist the temptation — tapping at your wrist with the pads of his fingers, before gently curling them around it, coaxing you into turning your head towards him.
the kiss he presses to your lips is soft, delicate. his fingers trace along your jaw, cupping your cheek and tilting your face up slightly, just letting his warm lips rest against yours. sweet and chaste. he sighs into the kiss, content, and feels your pulse pick up.
then he moves down to your jaw, slow and methodical — lazy kisses, sleepy but so full of affection. and little pecks, scattered all over your lips, your cheek, the tip of your nose.
you seem to melt a little, against him, and satoru relishes in it; his ability to make you relax. far more valuable than the six eyes, he would argue.
when he pulls away from you, with what takes tremendous self-restraint, he’s smiling. his gaze meets yours, layered over with pure adoration, blue eyes crinkling as he looks at you. as if you’re his entire world. the kitchen light embraces him, cascading down the contours of his face; the bridge of his nose, the curve of his jaw, his barely noticeable dimples.
and there it is, again — that flicker of love in your eyes, that adoration. as if you’re looking at a painting, something too beautiful for words.
(satoru hopes you can see that very same adoration, reflected in his eyes as he looks at you.)
after a moment, he leans forward, to rest his jaw on the curve of your shoulder. you stumble a little under the weight, caged in as his arms hug your midriff.
”god,” he sighs, breathless, heavy with giddy disbelief. almost whining when he continues, nuzzling into your neck as if to hide. ”why are you so perfect, huh? i don’t get it.”
at that, you huff out a laugh, an amused little breath. wrapping your arms around his neck and scratching at his nape softly. satoru shudders just a little, arms tightening around you.
”stealing my line…” you mutter, accusatory, smile laced over with a honeyed affection.
another amused breath is exhaled into the air of the kitchen, this time from him. ”nah,” he grins, tugging you closer. ”’s mine.”
this is warm, he thinks. this feels right. complete, in a way that satoru never understood before you.
he could probably stand there forever, just basking in it. soaking up your body heat and the smell of your shampoo. until your warmth is all he knows, until he can never get your scent off his skin.
and satoru thinks that he could get used to this. a cotton candy sweet, light as a feather kind of love, one that smells like spring and tastes like strawberry shortcakes and feels like tight hugs shared in kitchens.
your love makes him feel so human. and it’s scary, terrifying even, but it's also too good to pass up. it’s worth the risk. so worth everything.
a yawn leaves your lips, suddenly. satoru feels you soften in his embrace, nuzzling closer to him, stumbling just a tad. he doesn’t think it’s fair, for such a simple gesture to make him as happy as it does.
”sleepy?” he coos, smile giddy and fond. ”let’s go to bed, okay? no more sleeping on the kitchen table, silly.”
a disgruntled little huff resounds throughout the air, as you let your arms fall to your sides. ”that’s on you,” you declare, poking the plush of his chest with your finger. ”i only fell asleep because you took so long.”
a teasing glint flickers in satoru’s eyes.
”wanted to see me that badly, huh?” he coos. you roll your eyes, and he pulls your cheek. ”that’s cute.”
”so what if i did?”
satoru stills. you’re smiling, a little mischievous but mostly sincere. and it really is very unfair of you, he thinks — to do this to him while his guard is down.
but he manages to pull himself together, raising an amused eyebrow and booping your nose in a way that catches you off guard. blinking up at him, eyelashes fluttering.
satoru clears his throat. ”well, that’s sweet.”
he turns on his heel, suddenly, and strolls over to the fridge. ”but you know what’s even sweeter?” he chirps, fingers curling around the handle as he swiftly pulls it open.
satoru licks his lips, absentmindedly, eyes trailing over all the different pastries. so close yet so far, just out of reach; his fingers move forward, towards that mesmerizing slice of strawberry shortcake —
”— no.”
a hand settles on satoru’s waist, and tugs him away from his well-deserved prize. taking advantage of his momentary surprise, you close the fridge decisively, and give him an unimpressed raise of your eyebrow.
satoru whines, loud and grating. pouting sweetly, trying to make you feel bad. ”c’mon, just one bite —”
”no.”
”but they’re for me!”
”they’re for you to eat tomorrow. i was only gonna let you eat them tonight if you were on the brink of starvation, or something.”
”i am!”
”so the takeout was a lie?” you narrow your eyes at him, suddenly suspicious. ”have you been skipping meals, again?”
satoru pauses. weighing his options. ”well, no, but…”
”— then no.”
another soft whine. you turn away from him, when he tilts his head and gives you his best set of puppy dog eyes. in fear of giving in to them, satoru knows, as you have so many times before. ”please?” he tries, to no avail.
”you’re not eating sweets before bed, satoru,” you deadpan, and his smile falls further, exaggerated. ”and no, we are not having that conversation again.”
he can tell you’re trying to sound stern, but a giggle tumbles from your lips nonetheless, at the ridiculousness of the situation. keeping a grown man away from your fridge, knowing that he’ll wolf down every pastry he sees and get himself sick if you don’t. all while the man in question whines at you in protest, frowing so deeply, disappointment evident on his features.
(except satoru really isn’t very disappointed at all. like this, he gets to stare at your smile all he wants, after all. knowing you won’t notice it, too busy trying to keep yourself from giving in to his pleas.)
he tries again, one last time. just because he knows it’ll make you laugh. you do, a little exasperated, and satoru couldn’t be happier.
and he thinks to himself that if this is what love is, if this is what it’s supposed to feel like, then it can’t possibly be that much of a curse.
maybe he should revise the hypothesis, get a second opinion. he’ll have to ask you tomorrow, over pastries and coffee, and hear what you have to say.
as you both stumble to the bedroom, sleepy and a little delirious, satoru thinks that maybe this is enough; the lighthearted banter, the fond laughter. everything good and real and normal, within the space of your apartment, a home he never thought he’d have.
(and maybe, a second opinion isn’t necessary, after all. maybe it doesn’t really matter if love is a curse or not, as long as he gets to share it with you, like this.)
that night, satoru dreams. curled up with you beneath the blankets, limbs tangled together, as if he could never be close enough.
he dreams of kitchen lights, of sweet treats and warm hands. of spring breezes, and a love he’s finally beginning to accept for what it is:
good. wholly and thoroughly.
#everyone pls read this rn 🥺#like#my heart can’t even explain how unbelievably warm and comforting this was#there’s so much love i felt tingly all over 🥺#almost teared up too 🥺#i think this is an ultimate comfort fic 😭😭 op thank u so much for writing this#i loved loved loved this#jjk#satoru#soft
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anon : seungcheol smut!Jealous sex, degrading, ass smacking definitely. just add anything y’know! maybe you were flirting with another member and he got jealous. thank you, I don’t really know how to request, second time requesting only. ❤️
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↠ summary : flirting with Jun just to get your boyfriend riled up really wasn’t a smart move, though you thought it meant no harm at the beginning, you realised way too late that it was a very, very bad idea.
↠ pairing : seungcheol x reader
↠ warnings : posessive behaviour, swearing, alcohol, mentions of drinking (no one gets drunk), dom!seungcheol, rough sex (he gets out of control heh), dirty talk, unprotected sex, orgasm denial, degradation, multiple orgasms, choking, hair pulling, spanking, cheol loves your ass alot, crying, biting, creampies, overstimulation, oral (male receiving), deep throating, cum eating, slight daddy kink, slight size kink, a bit of fluff in the end
↠ word count : 11.3K words
↠ author’s note : i know i took really long to post it and im sorry in every language that exists :-( i just got kinda carried away with this one (as you can see with the word count lmao) so i took really long perfecting it and editing. but i hope y’all love it and it makes up for the long ass wait !!
Another giggle passed your lips as you leaned on Jun, taking another sip of the red wine he had poured for you earlier.
You had come over to the dorms to spend some time with the boys, and of course, your boyfriend Seungcheol.
Currently, there was only Jun, Soonyoung, Vernon, Seungkwan and Seungcheol at the dorms, the rest being god knows where. You were a bit disappointed that you couldn't see all of them but at least you could see a few of them when they weren't busy or not at home.
"Hey you two! Let's do something together, this is so unfair you can't have her all to yourself Jun!" Soonyoung whined loudly, looking at both of you in annoyance.
You were all spread out, Vernon and Seungkwan and Soonyoung were sprawled on the couch, You and Jun were sitting on the floor, and your boyfriend was somewhere in the kitchen...his hard stare on you being oblivious to you.
"Come join us then," you said, patting the seat next to you.
You suddenly felt bad for them, you and Jun had been so lost in each other's conversations that you had almost forgotten about the rest.
"No ew...I don't even get what's so funny about him, I make the better jokes," Seungkwan huffed, rolling his eyes dramatically.
"You mean your over the top drama? She laughs because I'm actually funny," Jun shot, making you chuckle.
"Okay guys that's enough...let's do something together like Soonyoung suggested," you said, before their conversation got any more heated.
You leaned your back against the couch as you took the last sip of your wine.
"Want more?" Jun asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Oh no that's enough...I just finished my second glass," you said, placing your empty glass on the coffee table.
"So guys, what do you want to do?" Jun asked, looking up at the guys who were still laying on the couch.
"I don't know..." Soonyoung trailed off, making you smile.
"Wow....so you bother us and go on about how you wanna do something together but you have no idea on what to do?" Jun said, rolling his eyes in annoyance.
"Yeah well I didn't care what we did it was just annoying seeing you both so close!!" Seungkwan chirped.
"Fine, fine, how about....spin the bottle?" Vernon said, getting up from his sleeping position as he looked at us.
"Ah no, that's not fair on Y/N! And plus I don't wanna kiss any of you guys," Soonyoung said, pretending to vomit.
"You say it like we want to kiss you...I just wanna play so I can get the chance of kissing her," Jun said, winking your way as you blushed, hitting his shoulder softly.
Jun would be lying to himself if he said he never found you attractive, you always were to him, but he knew not to cross the line with Seungcheol, he respected his older friends relationship and he was happy for them- but he also envied him.
"Do you wanna die in the hands of hyung that bad?" Seungkwan asked, making Jun chuckle.
"Oh please...he doesn't mind, do you cheol?" Jun asked, cocking his eyebrow towards Seungcheol.
You look towards the kitchen area, your eyes falling on Seungcheol who had his gaze fixed on you already, like he had been staring at you the entire time. You bit your bottom lip, realising you had kinda been ignoring him the past hour since you were busy talking to Jun.
"What ever made you think I'd be okay with you kissing my girlfriend?" Seungcheol shot, his eyes finally leaving yours to glare at Jun.
"Come on now...it wouldn't hurt now would it? It's just a kiss after all...right Y/N?" Jun asked, turning to look at you.
"Uh..u-uhm..."
You looked down to your entwined hands, ignoring both of their stares on you..Jun wanting to know what you would say, and Seungcheol daring you to agree with Jun.
"This won't...end good I can feel it," you heard Vernon whisper to Seungkwan, making you agree...mentally of course.
"O-okay guys! Let's play truth or dare, everybody loves that game!" Soonyoung suddenly said, getting up from his seat on the couch to come and sit next to Jun.
"Yeah... teenagers do," Seungkwan mumbled, getting up aswell, before dragging Vernon up.
"But whatever...just thank you for lightening the mood!" Seungkwan added, joining you three on the floor, already forming a circle.
Soonyoung smiled, giving you a reassuring nod to which you smiled back, thanking him silently for saving you from the awkward situation you were in.
"Seungcheol hyung, you joining?" Vernon asked, before sitting next to you.
"Yeah, whatever," he muttered gruffly, walking over to where you guys were seated on the floor.
"Awh why did you call him? He's a party pooper!" Jun groaned, rolling his eyes.
"Seriously, who the fuck says that anymore?" Vernon snorted, making you laugh.
"Move," Seungcheol's voice broke away your laugh as you looked up at him, his eyes were on Vernon.
"Ah right, my bad," Vernon said, scooting more to Seungkwan's side so Seungcheol could sit between you too.
"Okay now that we're all seated...anybody have an app or something? Or do you just want to say random stuff?" Soonyoung asked.
"Nah I hate the apps, let's just say what we feel like saying," Jun said, making everyone nod- well except for Seungcheol, who was too busy being bored, he had only said yes so he could monitor Jun and you.
He trusted you, with his entire life, there was no doubt about that...but Jun on the other hand or any of the other members at that, they were his closest friends and he also trusted them...but boys will be boys and he knew he had to be careful in case any of them got a bit too, well....touchy.
"Okay then, who wants to go first?" Seungkwan asked, as you crossed your legs, your pleated skirt riding up your thigh.
Jun's eyes fell to your thighs unwillingly, as he swallowed thickly, moving his eyes away quickly before someone caught him...and what he didn't realise was, Seungcheol was watching him the entire time and had seen him catch a glimpse of his girlfriend.
Seungcheol's jaw twitched, as he grabbed your wrist before pulling you up quickly.
"What are you doing cheol?" You asked innocently, unaware of the looks you had just received.
"Your staying the night so you should be comfortable..and this will not keep you warm," he said, eyeing Jun.
"Oh you can borrow my hood-"
"She has my clothes so don't worry," Seungcheol snapped, cutting Jun off his sentence.
Jun bit back a laugh, knowing he was really starting to piss his older friend off.
You just stayed still as Seungcheol dragged you from the lounge area and into the corridor to his room.
He locked it behind you both, before turning to look at you.
"Did you really not have anything else to wear today?" He asked, jaw clenched tightly.
"I came straight here after meeting up with my friends," you said, looking down at your outfit.
"What's wrong with it?"
"What's wrong? It's so fucking short that anyone could see your ass with one bend of your knees," he shot, eyeing you angrily.
"Cheol calm down..plus I do look cute in it," you said back, as you bat your eyelashes at him.
Seungcheol sighed, ignoring you as he walked into his closet.
You frown deeply as your fingers curled into fists, was he really not going to compliment you?
"Cheolie..do you really not find me hot in this?" You sulked, holding onto his muscular arm that you oh so loved.
"Let go of me, I'm trying to find something for you to wear," he mumbled gruffly, making you whine.
"But cheol...look at me, you have to admit-"
He pulled your arm off him, before roughly pushing you towards the wall.
"What the hell Seungcheol!"
"Yeah, you fucking do look hot, so hot that I'm trying my hardest not to bend you over right now and fuck the living hell out of you so you never dare wear something like this ever again," he spat, catching you off guard.
"That's what you wanted to hear, right?"
"I-I.."
His hands trailed down your back slowly, his stare on you cold and hard.
"I've been watching you princess...so don't think I don't notice your flirting.."
His hands smoothed up and down your ass, making you bite your lip before you could let out a whine.
"I'm not flirting...I'm just being friendly," you bravely said as you felt his lips on your neck. He wasn't doing anything, just keeping his lips on your skin but that was enough to have your entire body burning.
"Don't lie sweetheart....I know you have a really bad habit of pissing me off....so if I were you, I would stop being so flirty with my friends or you'll really get it from me..understand?" He growled, making you nod.
"Words sweetheart," he warned, moving away from your neck to look at your flushed face.
You smirked, before replying innocently. "I understand, daddy."
Seungcheol's eyes visibly darkened, as he licked his lips.
"I wouldn't play like that with me darling," Seungcheol snapped, bringing his face dangerously close to yours.
"Cheol...my clothes," you reminded him, pushing him off you.
"..Right," he huffed, looking at you one last time before moving away to get out a hoodie and sweatpants for you to wear.
"You...wore this last time you came I'm pretty sure, it should fit," he mumbled, probably to himself as he took out a simple pair of black sweatpants, before handing it to you.
"As for a hoodie since it's cold...."
"Hah...speaking of hoodies...I have like five of yours still in my apartment," you said, smiling at him sheepishly.
He turned around, his eyes soft once again.
"Well good thing I have alot right?"
You both laughed, as he took out one of his most favorite hoodies.
"This one...you are not taking home...it's my favorite," he said, pouting at you.
"Why are you giving it to me then?" You asked, crossing your hands across your chest.
"What's mine, is yours right? Plus you'd look so cute in it, I only said you couldn't take it home because then I won't be able to wear it all the time since it will be at your apartment," he said, making you laugh.
"Alright alright, I'll return it to you before I leave...what a baby," you mumble the last line, but Seungcheol was quick to catch on.
"Who you calling a baby?" He asked, cocking his eyebrow.
"You, now get out, I'm gonna change," you said, already pushing him out of the closet door since you knew he would try and stay.
"Oh come on...I can't wait until those annoying men go to sleep! The least you can do is give me a show until then," he said, winking at you.
"Go away cheol."
You shut the door in his face, laughing at how he whined from the other side.
In the past year and a half that you two had been dating, Seungcheol always was really just a big baby. Seemed all tough from the outside especially since he needed to be a good role model to his younger member's, but you all knew he was just a huge softie when it came to people he loved.
But you and his friends knew very well that if was to ever get mad, he would be very mad.
And that's why you loved ganging up with them to piss him off, see what would throw him off exactly.
He was like a bear in your opinion, soft and cuddly, but scary too.
You sighed, pushing your thoughts to the side before changing into the clothes Seungcheol had given you. Once you were done, you opened the door.
"How do I look?" You asked, turning around once.
"Covered. You look covered. Thank god," he replied with no expression. making you huff as you turned away from him, already walking out the door.
"Finally! You took so long!" Soonyoung yelled.
"Sorry guys, it took a while finding something I wanted to wear," you said, sitting back down next to Jun on the floor.
"Well you look really cute, big hoodies look so good on you," Jun said, making me smile.
"Thank you."
You felt Seungcheol sit next to you, before he kissed your cheek lovingly making you blush.
"Now who wants to go first?" Vernon asked.
"I'll go first....Soonyoung...truth or dare?" Seungkwan asked.
"Hmm....truth."
Vernon groaned, "That's so boring can we only do dares?"
"Shut up for once that isn't how you play!" Seungkwan shot, as everyone laughed.
"Guys relax, it's just a game...and yeah kwan is right, and it's his choice on what he wants to do," you said, making Vernon sigh.
"Ah, fineeee."
"Thank you, now...Soonyoung....what's the dirtiest thing you have ever done..don't worry, it's a safe place and Jihoon isn't here so he can't bully you," Seungkwan said, as everyone turned to look at Soonyoung, waiting for him to answer.
"Ahh...well..do you mean sexually..or just..dirty, dirty?" He asked awkwardly.
"Any, your choice," Vernon said, making you nod.
"Uhm...eh...well I once didn't brush my teeth and lasted on chewing gum the entire day cuz I didn't want to be late for practice and keep you guys waiting."
Everyone's eyes were on Soonyoung, making him smile sheepishly.
"It's okay, I'm sure everyone has done that at lease once in their lifetime," you said, smiling at him.
"Have you!?" Seungkwan asked, disgust written all over his face.
"Honestly, I did it once in middle school cuz I didn't want to be late for an exam," you confessed honestly, scratching the back of your neck.
"God your so honest, makes me feel like being honest too...I have done that a couple of times," Vernon said, smirking at you.
"Ewww Hansol get off me!..Y/N I'll let off because I love her but you!?" Seungkwan squeaked, pushing Vernon further away from him.
"Hey don't bully him, we're just being honest here so Soonyoung doesn't feel lonely," You said, frowning at Seungkwan.
"Okay stop, why the fuck are we even having this conversation? Isn't anyone going to even bother asking Soonyoung why the fuck he chose that as something to say for a truth?" Jun suddenly said, looking at us in disbelief.
"Oh yeah true...but I guess it was good enough," Seungkwan said making all of us nod.
"Yeah it was good, if your lucky I won't tell Jihoon," Vernon said, sticking his tongue out.
"No stop, that man never leaves me alone to start with," Soonyoung whined, making all of us laugh.
"Okay shut up and just choose who you're going to ask next," Jun groaned, rolling his eyes.
"Right, um, Vernon!"
"Ahh...dare, cuz I wanna spice things up and I'm not a pussy," Vernon said, winking at Soonyoung.
"Perfect....I dare you to call Wonwoo and tell him you spilt something on his bed sheets," Soonyoung said, wriggling his eyebrows.
"That's not a dare....that's suicide," Vernon said, as he visibly shuddered.
"This is going to be fun," Seungcheol whispered in your ear, knowing very well how angry Wonwoo gets when someone goes in his room.
You nodded your head as everyone grew silent, watching Vernon closely as he took his phone out of his pocket.
"Okay...it's ringing," Vernon said.
"Put it on speaker," Soonyoung whispered, as Vernon nodded.
"Hey, what's up?" You heard Wonwoo's deep voice through the phone, making your heart beat fast, suddenly scared for Vernon's life.
"Hey hyung...where are you?" Vernon asked nervously.
"I'm out with a few friends, I told you guys before I left...is everything okay?"
"Uhm...I...I was in y-your room cuz I wanted to uh...borrow your....pen and I spilt juice all over your bed-"
"YOU WHAT!?" Wonwoo yelled from the other side, making Soonyoung start laughing loudly.
"This is kinda boring...wanna do something else?" Jun suddenly whispered in your ear, making you turn to look at him.
"Oh come on, why isn't it fun?" You asked.
"I'd just much rather be doing something else.." Jun trailed off, making you sigh.
"Alright...what do you want to do?"
"Hmm...let's find something to eat?" Jun suggested, making you chuckle as you nodded.
You got up, about to follow Jun to the kitchen before you felt someone tug at your wrist.
"Where are you going?" Seungcheol asked.
"I'm going to the kitchen with Jun, we're gonna find something to eat," you said, pulling out of his grasp before he could answer.
"I found ice-cream!" Jun exclaimed, waving the tub of strawberry ice-cream around.
"Is that the only flavour?" You asked, looking into the fridge, as your eyes laid on another tub of vanilla ice-cream.
"Yeah sadly we only have those two, let's have both though," Jun replied, clapping his hands.
You laughed as you took the tub of vanilla ice-cream out, before grabbing two spoons.
"Let's just eat from the tub?" You asked, making Jun nod with a smile.
You grabbed the strawberry ice-cream as he grabbed the vanilla one, and you both started to open the lid, quickly taking a spoonful into your mouth.
"Ah yes! This is exactly what I needed!" You mumbled, taking another bite.
"Yeah me too...tell me when you want to swap," Jun said, pointing to his tub of ice-cream.
You nodded your head, turning around to look back at the guys.
"So whats happening?" You whispered, as Soonyoung turned to look at you.
"Well he started cursing obviously...said a few...threats but we quickly told him in was a dare and now their having a conversation about food or something," Soonyoung said, making you nod.
"I'm surprised though, thought he would be running home by now," Jun said, making you laugh.
"That literally wasn't funny, why are you laughing?" Seungkwan shot, walking up to you guys.
"I'm sick of him stealing you away, come on, truth or dare was kinda getting boring already anyways."
Before you could even open your mouth, Seungkwan had taken the ice-cream from your hands and put it back in the freezer.
"Kwan why!" You whined, pulling at his sleeve.
"Let's do something together! How about karaoke?" He suggested, making you huff.
"Yeah fine, okay.....Jun come on!"
You and Jun went back to sit on the couch, as Seungkwan took his phone out to play some songs.
"He only asked for this so he could show off," Jun whispered in your ear, making you chuckle as you rested your head on his shoulder.
Your eyes suddenly flicked to Seungcheol, who was still sitting on the floor, his eyes fixed on you. You could feel his anger, even from feet away, but that only sparked a light bulb in you.
you wanted to piss him off, really bad. and all just for the fun of it.
You had your fair share of moments in making him mad yourself. Especially on days like this, when you decided to play around with his friends to get him jealous purposely, it always ended in rough sex that ended up with you not being able to walk properly the next day...but today, you wanted to see just how many buttons you could push before he finally snapped.
and oh boy, you were about to find out just how angry you could really get him.
You looked away smirking to yourself as you snuggled into Jun, pretending to completely ignore Seungcheol's presence as you watched Seungkwan start singing and dancing.
"Yo Y/N....hyung looks mad," Vernon whispered from beside you, making you look at him.
"I know...but it's funny," you replied, smirking at him.
"Guess your right, I'm gonna take photos of him for safekeeping," Vernon said, making you chuckle.
"Alright but be careful," you reminded him.
A few minutes passed of you and Jun just laughing at Seungkwan and Soonyoung while they sang to a duet, when you decided to get up and go get a drink.
"I'm gonna go get something to drink, you want?" You asked Jun and Vernon, as you got off the couch.
They both shook their heads, making you nod slightly before walking over to the kitchen.
Aa you were pouring yourself a glass of water, you didn't realise someone was right behind you, until you bumped into their chest.
"Can't you see where your walking?" You muttered at Seungcheol, moving away from him to place the glass on the kitchen island.
He hugged you from the back, his fingernails digging into your skin.
"You...have had quite the attitude with me lately, where is this coming from...hm?" He whispered darkly in your ear, as you looked at the guys to make sure they weren't looking.
"Nowhere..and what attitude, just cuz I told you to watch where your walking?" You scoffed, trying to keep your composure when you felt his teeth graze your earlobe.
"Don't act smart with me, you know what I'm talking about," he spat, making you smile.
He bought one of his hands down to your clothed core, while the other stayed firm against your waist.
"Was it nice warming up with Jun sweetheart?" He asked rather softly, but you knew all to well not to answer such a question....but today, you would.
"Of course it was, he was so warm and cuddly I just wanted to sleep in his arms," you sighed, pretending to be day dreaming.
He turned you around suddenly, pushing you against the counter.
"I told you before, do not push me, right? I don't know why you're being so bold today but keep stepping over the line and I'll make sure you really regret it," he growled, towering over you easily.
"Look cheolie...I don't know what your talking about but I'm really just being friendly, your just overreacting," you said, rolling your eyes.
His grip on your waist tightened to the point where you winced.
"Did you just roll your eyes at me?" He asked lowly, making you smirk.
"Yeah, I did, so what?" You asked irritatedly.
"Okay that's it. Get that pretty little ass of yours inside my room, now," he spat, making you scoff in disbelief.
"And what? You really think I'm just going to obey you like some puppet, go away cheolie," you smiled, kissing his cheek before pushing him away.
You smiled to yourself as you saw his shocked expression, and just as you were about to walk away, he grabbed your wrist.
"Then behave...next time, I won't be asking, I'll be dragging you myself," he warned, letting go off your wrist.
You scoffed, taking a sip off your water walking back to sit next to Jun again.
"He's still singing?" You whispered to Jun as you watched Seungkwan in shock.
"Yep...and next up is Soonyoung," Jun replied, sighing in annoyance.
While watching Seungkwan completely loose himself to a bunch of girl group songs, you saw Seungcheol from the corner of your eyes come and sit down next to you.
"Hey baby," he whispered near your ear, like you weren't just talking a few mere minutes ago.
He kissed your cheek before sitting back comfortably against the couch, his hand coming up to rest on your thigh, something he always did as a way to show you he was there- or at times like this, to just remind Jun that your boyfriend was right there.
A smile made its way to your mouth as you realised what he was doing.
You turned to look at him, before moving a little closer to his ear.
"Awh is cheolie scared Jun will take me from you?" You whispered, before looking away and back to Seungkwan, who was still dancing.
"Everyone here knows you belong to me, love, but I think your the one that needs a reminder," he whispered back with his jaw clenched.
You chuckled as you rested your head on Jun's shoulder, scooting more closer to him.
"Your really warm, Jun," you said, loud enough so Seungcheol would hear.
Jun smiled, figuring out exactly what you were trying to do, and he was happy to help...how could he ever say no to a chance of pissing off someone like choi seungcheol?
"Are you cold? It must be his hoodie that isn't keeping you that warm..I have this really warm one that would look so cute on you," Jun said, making you smirk mentally.
"Really? Can I wear-"
You words were stuck in your throat when you felt Seungcheol's grip on your thigh tighten, but you quickly cleared your throat.
"Yeah of course, I'll go get it for you," Jun said, making you push Seungcheol's hand off your thigh before getting up.
"Sit down," Seungcheol suddenly said, just as you were about to follow Jun to his room.
You leaned down, pecking his neck before answering. "Stop being so jealous baby, I just want to wear something warmer."
His eyes narrowed on you, as you heard him grit his teeth. "You want something warm, then let's head to bed."
You chuckled lowly, bringing your hand up to ruffle his hair before pulling at his cheeks.
"I don't want your dick, cheol," you deadpanned, before walking away.
Just as you got to Jun's room, he had already got out the hoodie he was talking about.
"Here, you can change in the bathroom if you want," he said, handing the hood to you.
You nodded your head before walking to his bathroom, and locking the door behind you.
Taking off Seungcheol's hoodie, you frowned a little, knowing he could be hurt that you took off his favorite hoodie that he wanted you to wear, just so you could play around with him.
Shaking your head, you decided to just go with it, knowing he most likely won't mind since he probably knows your just trying to get him worked up.
you should've stopped there.
You fixed your hair after putting on Jun's hoodie, loving the way it suited you, and even though Seungcheol's hoodie was keeping you warm, this one was too.
"Wow you look amazing in it," Jun complimented, as you came out of the bathroom.
"Thank you, I love it!"
He smiled at you before the both of you walked out of the door and back to the living room.
You threw Seungcheol's hoodie to his face, making Jun and Vernon laugh.
"You have guts I admire," Vernon complimented you, as Seungcheol slowly pulled the hoodie away from his face, his angry eyes throwing daggers to your amused ones.
"You fucking did not," he drawled, making you smile at him innocently.
"What? I wanted to wear it," you said, flicking your hair as you went back to sit in between Jun and Seungcheol.
Seungcheol sighed angrily, his fingers curling into fists. He always loved that you wore his clothes, because he could smell himself all over you, but now that you wore Jun's, he wanted nothing more than to rip it off your body.
"What's wrong Seungcheol, you don't look well," you asked innocently, grabbing his arm and snuggling into him purposely, knowing he could smell Jun on you.
"Stop," he warned, making you smile.
"Alright, I'll leave you alone then," you said, pulling away from him and hugging Jun, leaning your head on his chest.
"Hey Jun, do you want to sing together?" You asked, as Jun looked at you.
"Yeah of course, let's join them," he said, grabbing your hand and pulling you up.
You both started joining in on the song Seungkwan and Soonyoung were so immersed in, as you forced Vernon to join aswell.
"Cheolie come join us," you said, turning to look at him.
He didn't respond, just looked at you blankly, but you knew he was burning in anger.
You bit your lip, wondering if you really had just crossed over the line, you knew far too well that when Seungcheol got angry he was brutal and merciless.
Just to be safe, you walked over to him and sat on his lap before pecking his cheek.
"You okay?" you asked carefully, massaging his tensed shoulders.
"Don't suck up to me now, you've pissed me off well enough already...I'm holding you responsible for this, not him," he growled, his eyes never leaving yours.
"It was a joke cheol, lighten up," you mumbled, slightly getting worried for yourself.
"Get off my lap and go enjoy your fun while you can," he whispered darkly, making a shiver run down your spine.
You hesitantly got off, giving him a small smile before turning around and walking back to the guys.
Seungcheol's words echoed in your mind while you sang and danced, and as much as you tried to ignore them, they only made you grow anxious, but also a little excited.
go enjoy your fun while you can
You knew you should've tried harder and maybe even apologised, but the look he gave you when he told you to get off his lap was enough to make you obey without even a second to loose.
While you were busy in your thoughts, you didn't hear Jun call your name, until he carried you up suddenly making you squeal.
"You seemed zoned out so I wanted to wake you up," he said, laughing at your shaken expression.
"God you scared m-"
"Put her down," Seungcheol's deep voice made everyone stop moving, as they turned to look at him.
"Relax we're just having fun," Jun said, holding you tighter as you wrapped your hands around his neck to support yourself.
"Just put her down hyung," Seungkwan whispered, as I looked at Jun.
"It's okay Jun you can put me down," I said, we were so close I could feel his hot breath against my skin.
"Okay this is my queue I'm suddenly tired, good night guys," Vernon said, giving me a smile before running off to his room.
Jun smiled at you, before turning to look at Seungcheol.
"And what if I don't want to?" He asked, raising one of his eyebrows at him.
Seungcheol got up, making you bite your lip as you realised this wasn't going to end well.
He put his hands in his pockets as he stood right in front of you guys. Seungcheol was beyond angry at this point, and mostly just pissed off at this moment with how his younger member was talking back to him, he wasn't going to let that happen.
"I think you've forgotten your place, but I'll ask you once more...let.her.go," Seungcheol drawled, his low dominant tone sending shivers down your spine.
"Jun," you called softly, patting him on the chest.
He sighed, nodding his head before putting you down slowly before Seungcheol grabbed your wrist roughly, pulling you to his side.
"Hey! Be careful!" You mumbled, trying to pull away from his grasp, but he only tightened it.
"That's enough for one night, it's already past 12, everyone go to bed," Seungcheol said sternly, making Seungkwan and Soonyoung nod, before turning the TV off. As much as they wanted to continue singing, they knew better than to annoy their leader when he already seemed so on edge.
"Look I'm sorry, okay? We were just messing around...she's yours and I know that," Jun said, patting Seungcheol's shoulder before winking your way.
"Goodnight guys," he added, before walking away.
You swallowed harshly when you heard Jun's room door open and close. Seungcheol was still not saying anything to you, but you could feel the anger radiating off him, as he was still looking straight ahead.
"Now you...." He trailed off, finally meeting eyes with you.
You bit your bottom lip, wanting nothing more than to dash out of the apartment before he could say anything more.
"Get your ass in my room before I drag you there myself," he spat, his voice laced with authority.
He let go of your wrist, making you rub the sore area as you nodded your head.
You feet walked for themselves as your mind clouded with nothing but regret, why did you even think of this stupid idea again?
You knew Seungcheol was right behind you from his heavy steps and slow breathing, his eyes burning holes into your back.
Once you were in his room, you heard the door shut behind you, before the faint sound of the lock perked your ears.
You didn't dare turn around, as you kept your eyes to the ground, not knowing how to get out of this situation.
should've thought this through huh.
You thought to yourself, before you were forced to shoo away your thoughts when you heard Seungcheol clear his throat.
"Turn around."
You did as he said, hoping he'd forgive you if you at least listened to him now.
"How long did you wanna keep that act up, hm?" He asked, as you looked down at your entwined fingers.
"I-I was j-just-"
"Look at me when I'm talking to you," he drawled, making you look up at him slowly.
"I was just messing with you cheol, I didn't think you would take it that seriously," you bravely said, making Seungcheol nod.
"Hmm..well didn't I warn you before not to fuck around with me like that?" He shot, making you bite your bottom lip, not knowing how to answer him.
"Y-Yes....yes you did...I-I'm sorry," you whispered, trying your hardest not to look away from him.
He sighed irritatedly, eyeing you head to toe.
"Take it off."
"Huh?" You asked dumbly, making Seungcheol swallow harshly, his adam's apple bobbing up and down.
"Take off his hoodie," he spat, making you slowly nod.
You bought your shaky fingers to the hem of the hoodie, playing with it slightly.
"For fucks sake hurry up, or I'm gonna have to rip it off myself."
You quickly pulled it over your head, throwing it to the couch in his room before you covered yourself with your arms, feeling a little conscious since you were only wearing a bra inside.
"Good."
He started slowly walking to you, making you take a step back as you watched him unbutton the first few buttons on his shirt.
"Never, ever let me catch you wearing any of their clothes ever again, understood?" He drawled, a hand coming up to caress your cheek.
"O-Okay," you mumbled, as his hand on your cheek went down to your neck.
"So, why did you decide to piss me off so much today, love?" His voice was somewhat calm, which was starting to freak you out.
"I-I..."
"Loss of words I see? Well let me tell you what I think then.."
He pulled you closer to him, his hand caressing the back of your neck.
"Was it because you suddenly felt the need to get me angry just so you could laugh about it later?...well whose laughing now sweetheart?" He mused, chuckling at your facial expression.
"Or maybe it was because you knew, once you were done and we were alone...I'd fuck all the right senses into you, have you screaming while I showed you no mercy whatsoever.."
You bit back a whine at his words, the dominance in his voice shooting right down to your throbbing pussy.
"You knew god damn well not to piss me off like that, fuck around with my friends like a fucking whore while I was right.there...what did you get out of that anyways?" He spat angrily.
You kept quiet, which only pissed him off further. "Answer me."
"I-I...don't know...I just wanted to..a-annoy you..." You trailed off, your breath getting caught in your throat when he wrapped his fingers around your neck.
"Well darling...you definetly did get something out of it....and it's not going to be fun for you," he growled, his grip on your neck tightening.
"I-I'm sorry.....I-I w-won't d-do it a-again," you stuttered out, holding onto his hand on your throat.
"Oh you won't, and I'll make sure of it," he spat, before letting you go and dropping his arms to the side.
He moved away from you and sat down on the edge of his bed, before calling you over with his finger.
"Come here princess."
You swallowed harshly, before walking over to him slowly. You stood in front of him, waiting for his next order.
"Take off your...my pants," he said, watching you closely.
You slowly bent down, pulling his sweatpants down your body before shaking it off your feet.
"Good....now I want you over my lap."
Your eyes widened, knowing exactly what that meant.
"Cheol, look, I'm sorry and-"
"I said, over. my. lap," he repeated sternly, making you swallow harshly.
You climbed over his lap, your limbs starting to shake when he placed one of his big warm hands over your ass, smoothing over it.
"You've...made it quiet the habit to disobey me...especially in front of my friends...and I am fucking sick of it...but you won't do it again, right baby?" He asked you softly, his hands pulling at your ass, avoiding the area you needed him the most.
"Y-Yes I won't..I won't do it again, I promise," your lips quivered, bracing for the impact.
It was silent for a while, before you felt his palm make contact with your ass harshly, causing you to lurch forward with a cry leaving your lips.
"Yeah that's right, be as loud as you can, rooms soundproof remember?..but I think you would've loved it if it wasn't hey?" He drawled, smacking you once again.
"Sh-shit!" You bit your lip, as you felt the strong burning sensation spread.
"Did you enjoy warming up to another man right in front of me?" Seungcheol growled, before smacking your ass once again, this time to the other cheek.
You groaned in pain, your elbows giving out, making you land face first onto the mattress.
"Answer when you are spoken to slut."
You turned your face to the side, looking up at him. "N-No I d-didn't."
"And will you ever do it again?" He spat, his hand soothing the red skin.
"Depends," you mumbled, smirking devilishly as you looked up at him.
His clenched his jaw, as his hands crawled up your skin and to your hair, pulling on it as you screamed.
"Guess I'll have to keep going until I get a satisfied answer from you then."
Your eyes shut tightly as another hard hit landed on your already aching cheeks.
It only got worse from there, as his hits got harder, and faster, as you cried in pain.
Your lower body suddenly felt numb, as Seungcheol stopped.
"Now try again....will you ever let a man that close to you ever again?"
You shook your head vigorously, "N-No never."
Seungcheol chuckled, his grip tightening on your hair.
"Good." He whispered, dragging his finger down your clothed core, chuckling deeply at how wet you were.
"What a fucking slut...are you seriously wet from this?"
You felt the heat rush to your cheeks as you refused to look at him.
"Or are you wet from flirting with Jun from before," he drawled, pulling your panties down roughly.
You didn't reply, which only made Seungcheol angrier as he spanked you again, making more tears fill your eyes.
"Tell me...while you flirt with other men and get close to them...do you at least remember who you belong to?" He asked, another loud smack landing on the same area as the last two.
You moaned loudly, finally feeling the pain subside a little as you only had the diritest thoughts running in your head now..but of course, your boyfriend had other plans.
He scoffed, "No answer, let's see if you'll talk after this."
Two of his fingers found your dripping entrance, before pushing into you roughly without any warning.
You mewled at the feeling of his thick fingers sliding into your walls, as you gripped the sheets below you.
"I'm not gonna move my fingers until you speak princess."
You groaned loudly, trying to push yourself on his fingers since he wasn't going to do it for you anytime soon, but as soon as you tried, he gripped your hair tighter.
"Don't even think about it. Now answer me."
"God Seungcheol, yes! I-I do remember who I b-belong t-to," you moaned out, when he added a third finger.
"Mmmh....you sure, cuz it didn't look like you thought of me before..." He trailed off, taking his fingers out of you before pulling your panties back on.
"Why-"
Your whine got stuck in your throat when he landed another hard slap on your ass, making you jolt forward in surprise.
"I don't like lies princess," he growled, rubbing your cheeks as you felt your sticky substance spread all over your ass.
"I-I d-did....think o-of you," you whined, wanting nothing more than his fingers stuffed back in your pussy.
"No, you didn't...cuz if you did you wouldn't have done any of that in the first place," he spat, before he smacked you once again.
A moan left your lips, as you bit your lip to stop any other sound from escaping, as Seungcheol tsked.
"Oh? I see my little slut has started enjoying this, thats not good."
In seconds he had pulled you up by your hair, making you stand on your wobbling legs as he let go off you.
"On your knees, hands behind your back."
You did as you were told as you looked up, watching Seungcheol pull down his sweatpants along with his boxers.
One of his hands found purchase in your hair as he pulled you closer. "You've found ways to piss me off the entire day, your smart remarks, talking back to me...so lets finally put that dirty mouth of yours to good use hm?"
You swallowed harshly, nodding your head as your eyes fell on his red tip, that already had a little bit of pre-cum dripping down.
"Remember, no touching, and if I see your legs give out even a little....I won't be nice," He growled, gripping your hair tighter as his other hand guided his cock to your closed lips.
He opened his mouth, signalling you to do the same thing.
You gulped, knowing he wasn't going to go soft on you by the angry look in his eyes that still hadn't faded. You opened your mouth slowly as Seungcheol almost instantly pushed himself into you.
You gagged around him when you felt him hit the back of your throat, your mouth stretching beyond comfort as he used your mouth without any mercy.
"Look up at me, I wanna see my cock in your mouth properly," he rasped out, as you moaned around his length.
You looked up, watching how his eyes stared at you so intensely that you almost felt enchanted by them, the beads of sweat rolling down his face his expression filled with pure pleasure. But you were bought back to reality when you felt Seungcheol push more of his length down your throat as you choked around him, tears starting to fill your eyes.
"L-Look at you now princess, not so strong anymore hm? God this is the only good thing your mouth can do," he spat, before a long moan left his lips when you hallowed your cheeks, sucking on him.
You wanted to touch him, so badly, especially since you knew your legs couldn't support you much longer, but it would only anger him more so you tried your best to stand up straight as he fucked into your mouth much faster.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck....you take me in so well babygirl..just like that, I'm close," he groaned, gripping your hair tighter as you felt his cock twitch in your mouth.
He went faster as you whimpered slightly, your mouth starting to burn at his rough movements. He pushed you forward right down to his pelvic bone, making you let out the most sinful sounds.
After what felt like hours of his torture on you, he finally released in your mouth, some of it sliding straight down your throat before he pulled your head back, more of his cum hitting your tongue.
He pulled out of you, giving you the look that told you to swallow everything.
Your chest heaved up and down as you swallowed, the strong salty substance making your body tingle.
"Open your mouth, I wanna see it all gone," he asked, his own breathing erratic as he looked down at you.
You opened you mouth, sticking your tongue out, earning a moan of appreciation from your boyfriend.
"Good."
You looked up at him with half lidded eyes, silently telling him to let you get up as your knees started burning, along with your aching ass that still tingled in pain.
"You're so messy," he cooed, wiping the saliva mixed with his cum that was all over your mouth and chin with his hand.
He pulled you up by your hair, making you yelp in surprise."You were so good for me...but don't think I didn't notice your legs waver," he whispered darkly, making your eyes widen.
"Ch-Cheol I-I-"
"On the bed, legs spread out," he commanded, cutting you off.
"B-But Seungcheol I...my knees s-started getting uncomf-"
"Are you really going to make me repeat that again?" He growled, eyeing you angrily.
You swallowed harshly, shaking your head before moving away from him, your shaky hands and legs moving down to lay on the bed, as you hesitantly spread your legs a little, barely.
Seungcheol watched you with predatorial eyes, scoffing at you.
"I said, spread your legs," he spoke through gritted teeth, sitting down on the edge of the bed as he watched you while he rolled the sleeves of his button up.
You hesitantly spread your legs even further your drenched clothed core on full display to Seungcheol's hungry eyes.
"I want it all coming off your body," he said, pointing to your bra and panties.
You were quick to comply, starting with unclasping your bra before throwing it to the side, before you pulled down your panties, flicking it to the side.
"I haven't even touched you properly, yet your soaked," He said, tilting his head to the side a little, his eyes trained on your dripping entrance, making you shut your thighs tightly together out of reflex.
"Ah, ah, ah....spread them out," he warned, making you bite your bottom lip, as you slowly spread your legs once again.
"Now, touch yourself."
You were shocked at his words, Seungcheol never let you touch yourself...so you knew something was up.
You looked at him with slightly widened eyes.
"A-Are you serious?"
"Was I speaking in french?" He shot boredly, making you gulp as you shook your head.
You bought your fingers down to your seeping entrance, glancing at Seungcheol once before dipping one of your fingers in.
You moaned softly, adding a second finger when you realised it wasn't enough, as you started a slow pace.
"Go faster," Seungcheol's deep voice reminded you he was still in the room, as you looked over at him with hazy eyes.
You went faster, throwing your head back as you moaned over and over again, forgetting everything around you as you just focused on making yourself cum.
You felt your walls clench around your fingers, as you let out a long moan, the coil in your stomache threatening to snap.
And just as you were about to come undone, your fingers were yanked out of you.
"Seungcheol!" You almost screamed, shaking your legs around as he chuckled.
"Go again."
You hurriedly stuffed your fingers back in once he let go off your wrist, slowly building up the pleasure once again. You bought your free hand down to your clit, rubbing the bundle of nerves to bring you closer to the edge, the need to cum growing stronger by the second.
You worked your fingers harder, moaning and shaking as you came all around your fingers. Your breathing was uneven as you closed your eyes, completely sated.
Your happy mood was quickly ripped away when Seungcheol grabbed your thighs.
"Did you enjoy that sweetheart?" He asked sweetly, but you knew better.
He ran his thumb down your gushing entrance, making you shiver.
"Yes..."
"Yes what?" He growled, pushing in four of his fingers into you at once as you groaned.
"Yes....d-daddy," you moaned out breathlessly.
"Hmm...so much cum," he whispered, nuzzling his nose into your folds.
He lapped up the cum that had seeped out of your hole while he started moving his fingers in you, making you moan softly, your fingers tangling in his hair.
He looked up at you, his lips glistening in your essence as he glared at you.
"No touching," he mumbled, making you nod before letting go off him to grip the sheets underneath you.
Just as you felt your release was close, Seungcheol pulled his fingers out of you, before crawling over your body as he licked his fingers clean.
You whined as you clenched around nothing, feeling empty without his fingers.
"Don't worry baby, you'll have something in your pussy in no time," one of his hands came up to circle around your throat, while the other stayed firm against your hip.
"Now I'm going to tell you exactly what I'm going to do to you, and your going to listen alright?"
You nodded your head, as Seungcheol's grip on your throat tightened.
"Words, love," he warned.
"Y-Yes....daddy," you half moaned when you felt his lips graze your hardened nipple.
"I'm going to fuck you hard, tire you out so much to the point where you'll be begging me to stop...'cause that's what dirty whores like you want right? Well I'll gladly give it to you," he growled, flipping you over suddenly so you were laying on your back, your ass in the air.
"D-Don't be r-rough," you stuttered out, a shiver running down your spine when you felt the tip of his cock slowly circle your tight rim.
"You really thought I was going to go soft on you after that little stunt?" He asked, groping your ass as he spat in his other hand, rubbing it all over his cock as extra lubricant. He pushed his tip into you without warning, making you cry out for more.
"I see my little sluts getting impatient, hm?" He mused from behind you, before he landed a hit on your right cheek, making you hang your head down, moaning loudly.
"Seungcheol please," You groaned, as you tried to push yourself back on his cock, but he was quick to grip your hips, stopping your movements.
"Your not going to get it that easy...beg for it, slut," he spat, another smack landing on your ass.
"Daddy please.....I want you so bad," you whined, swaying your hips a little.
"Why should I give you what you want when all you've been doing tonight is disobeying me?"
"I-I'll be good, I p-promise...ch-cheol, please," you moaned out, as you felt your arousal drip down your thighs and onto the sheets
"You really are such a needy whore, you know that? You flirt with other guys, pretend like I can't see what your doing....and now your shamelessly begging me to fuck you?"
"N-No...all I want is y-you," you stuttered out, all shame leaving your mind, as the only thing that was running through your mind was Seungcheol fucking you.
He growled lowly before pushing into you completely, filling your ass to the brim.
"Fuck....d-daddy you feel so good," you moaned out, as your hands that were keeping you up finally gave out, as your face landed on the pillow.
"Such a whore...get up and look at me."
You did as he said, getting back up on your shaking arms before turning back to look at him. His jaw was clenched down, and the look he had in his eyes was enough to show you how much of a deep hole you were in.
"Tell me...could Jun or any other guy fuck you like this?" He growled, as he pulled out of you before slamming back into you with force.
You broke eye contact with him, as you hit the pillow below you once again from the impact.
"Answer me, or I'll stop," he warned, making you whine.
"N-No, cheol....n-no o-one c-could," you somehow made out, even with you mind all over the place, the only thng you could focus on being Seungcheol.
"Yeah thats right, no one could use you like I fucking do," he spat, smacking your ass harshly, making you choke on your moans.
His movements went rougher, as you felt the tears of pleasure blur your sight. "Ch-cheol, go s-slower."
You felt his hand wrap around your throat, before he pulled you up roughly, your back hitting his chest as your eyes rolled to the back of your head at the angle his cock was hitting you.
"Your in no position to be telling me what to do, so I suggest you just take what I give you, I'm pissed off as it is," he growled in your ear, before his lips found your neck, biting down on your sensitive skin.
A scream left your throat as you felt the coil in your stomach tighten, feeling your release was close.
"Cum only when I tell you to," he whispered in your ear, before placing kisses on your cheek, which shocked you at his sudden softness.
"All mine, your entire body belongs to me...right babygirl?" He asked sweetly, snapping his hips harshly as you heard him grunt into your ear.
"Y-Yes...sh-shit cheol you feel so g-good," you cried out, the tears rolling down your face as you shook uncontrollably.
"I can feel you clenching, don't you dare cum," he warned, as his grip tightened on your throat, making you a little dizzy.
Tons of moans slipped from your lips, as you threw your head back onto Seungcheol's chest, screaming out his name.
Seungcheol's free hand went down your stomach, before his fingers slipped through your wet folds.
You let out a guttural moan, shaking your head as Seungcheol pressed hard circles into your clit.
"I-I need....to..c-cum plea-"
"Not yet, this is your punishment for not behaving properly...so if you want to make it worse for you, by all means...cum all you want like the slut you are," he seethed, before his lips went back to sucking dark purple and red marks into your neck.
"Cheol please!" You screamed, and without any other warning you felt yourself fall over the edge, the pleasure washing over you in waves as you moaned loudly, your body shaking.
Seungcheol growled angrily, pulling his fingers away from your clit before pushing you down on the bed harshly.
"Now your really pissing me off," he spat, pulling out of you as you sighed in content, letting your eyes close as you relaxed on the mattress.
He flipped you around, his fingers running down your entrance.
"Didn't I tell you not to cum yet?" He asked, eyes flaring at you.
You looked at him lazily. "I c-couldn't take it...I'm s-sorry."
"A sorry isn't going to fix this baby," he smiled at you, grabbing your thighs and pulling you towards him.
"Since my little whore can't seem to do as she's told, I'm willing to let you go on this one..."
"W-What?" You stuttered out.
"Since you want to cum so badly, let's see how much you can until you can't take it anymore," he smiled devilishly, as you felt the tip of his cock rub your folds.
A quiet moan left your lips, as you snaked your arms around Seungcheol's neck.
"Your not allowed to touch me, hands above your head," he spat, making you whine.
"Why baby...you love it when I touch you don't you?" You asked with a pout, your fingers raking down his arms.
"You don't deserve to touch me," he shot, grabbing your wrists and placing them above your head.
"Keep them there."
You nodded your head slowly, licking your lips as Seungcheol's eyes travelled to yours, before trailing down to your lips.
He wanted to kiss you, so badly, but he wasn't going to give in to you. Just the thought of Jun touching you was enough to have his blood boiling and all self control leaving him.
"Gonna fuck you so good, you'll think of this everytime you do so much as think of touching another man," he growled in your ear, before he slammed up into you roughly.
You groaned from the stretch, your walls sucking in his cock slowly as he moaned from above you.
"Shit fuck your still so tight," he hoarsed out, his lips finding your right nipple, before he had it between his teeth.
You felt him fill you to the brim, balls deep as you moaned into his ear from the feeling of being so full.
"Your hands are staying there, remember," he warned, making you nod as he completely pulled out, before pushing back into you.
Your fingers curled into fists as you moaned over and over again, Seungcheol's pace going faster by the seconds passing.
His lips bit into the sensitive flesh just under your collarbones, making you scream.
"Cheol what the fuck that hurt you idiot!" You angrily said, pushing his face away. Seungcheol was quick at becoming very aggressive when you guys normally had sex, especially if he was stressed or in a bad mood...or very pissed off at something you did like right now.
One of his hands left your hip to tangle in your hair, as he pulled on it, ignoring your angry eyes as he bit his lip, snapping his hips up into you.
You shook furiously, your orgasm quickly approaching as you threw your head back, tons of moans escaping your mouth.
"You enjoy being fucked like this doll? You love it when I use you like this don't you?" He asked, his mouth parting as you heard the ragged breaths that left his lips as he didn't slow his pace down. You nodded furiously, moaning out his name as you felt your release was close.
"Words."
"Y-Yes...yes I-I do, I l-love it!" You whimpered, your mind going blank as you could only focus on Seungcheol abusing your walls, and the sinful sounds leaving his mouth.
"Sh-shit cheol...y-you need to s-slow d-down," you somehow made out, as you felt him twitch inside you.
Seungcheol moaned into your ear, his hand in your hair loosening as he gripped your hips instead, his fingernails digging into your skin.
He ignored your words, his mouth sucking colorful marks into your neck as you cried out his name.
"Gonna fill you full of my cum, until it has no choice but to drip out of you...and then I'm gonna fuck it back into you," he whispered darkly, another heavenly groan leaving his lips.
"That should teach a whore like you to remember who she belongs to," he added, looking at you right in the eye.
His eyes were a few shades darker than usual, the lust and hunger evident in them as he bit his lips.
"Open your mouth."
You did as you were told, staying quiet as he pushed in three of his fingers into your mouth. You sucked on them happily, rolling your tongue around each digit before he was pulling them out.
"God your so hot," he muttered, bringing his coated fingers to your clit, before he started rubbing you roughly.
A garbled moan left your mouth as you came all over his cock, shaking in pure ecstasy while he rode out your orgasm.
He came soon after with a few more thrusts, his hot liquid filling you up as you shuddered from the warmth, closing your tired eyes.
You thought he was done when he started shifting and pulled out of you, but you were too tired to open your heavy eyelids to see. He placed one of your thighs over his shoulder, making your eyes shoot up.
"W-Wait what are you doing?"
"Who ever said I was done with you princess?" He asked, kissing your thigh before he was pushing into you once again.
"N-not more ch-cheol...I-I can't," you breathlessly moaned, the new angle making your insides tingle as you eyes rolled to the back of your head.
He snapped his hips, pounding into you deeply as he let out grunts and moans every now and then.
"Of course you can take more, that's what my slut is used for right? Taking what daddy gives her like a good girl."
"Please Seungcheol...n-no," your head started spinning as you lost all clear mind on what was happening, the pleasure being too much to handle.
"You love cumming like a little desperate slut without my permission, right? So come on, keep cumming, I'm not going to stop anytime soon."
Your eyes widened, was he serious?
The anger in his eyes was enough to give you the answer, he was genuinely still mad and you knew you had to make up for it.
"Ch-cheol...I'm s-sorry...s-so sorry I won't d-do that e-ever a-..again," you breathed out, squeezing your eyes shut as you felt the pleasure shake through your body as you came once again.
"Told you I'd make you beg.." He trailed off with a chuckle, as his fingers thread through you hair.
"Tell me...who do you belong to slut?"
"Y-You....y-you Seungcheol!" You screamed, tears spilling from your eyes.
"That's right...your all for me, and me alone...am I understood?" He growled, making you nod your head feverishly.
"Yes...y-yes, yes," you mumbled, your thighs shaking violently as Seungcheol fucked you through your orgasm, the oversensitivity causing you to cry out for him to stop.
"I-It h-hurts stop!" You sobbed out, looking up at him through bleary eyes. His eyes bore back into yours with nothing but lust, as he continued his pace without any mercy on you.
The pleasure mixed with slight pain at his rough movements, leaving you breathless, unable to move, and shocked that he still had so much stamina to keep going.
you really had hit the wrong nerve tonight, one you don't think you'll ever risk touching ever again.
He placed your thigh back on the mattress, before his fingers went down to your aching pussy, before he started rubbing tight circles into your clit, abusing the already swollen nub. A sudden wave of sensitivity hit you, as you came once again, throwing your head back as you whimpered.
His lips leaned down to lick and suck at your neck, making sure to paint as many marks as he could so you wouldn't be able to cover it the next morning.
"Think of this, think of this very moment every time you decide to get under my skin," he growled in your ear, before he moaned lowly, ropes of his cum filling you up once again.
He pulled out completely, a sigh leaving your lips as you looked down at him, as he watched his cum mixed with your own leak out of your hole, as you clenched around nothing.
"You look so pretty stuffed with my cum princess...makes me feel like fucking you like this all night," he moaned, swiping his thumb up and down your entrance, loving the way you squirmed under his touch and how more of his cum only oozed out, dripping onto the sheets.
He bought his fingers to your mouth, forcing them in as you sucked them clean of his cum.
"Want more?" He asked, bringing his fingers back down to your entrance, pushing them into you and collecting more of his liquid.
You nodded your head, knowing you would only anger him if you didn't accept it.
"Now that's my good girl...you always need me fucking the right senses into you, don't you? Because now your being so perfect...just how I like it," he nuzzled his nose into your neck, as you sucked on his fingers.
He entered you again, making you look at him in shock as he took his fingers out of your mouth.
"N-No....not again," your voice broke as Seungcheol kissed your cheek lovingly.
"Just one more princess...one more and thats it I promise."
He connected his lips to yours as he started moving his hips, his fingers going down to play with your clit. He pinched the nub between his fingers, as you felt yourself get lost in pleasure once again.
The next morning you woke up early, even though you had slept pretty late- well more like passed out.
Even in your shaken and aching state last night, you remembered Seungcheol carrying you into his bathroom and running you a warm bath as he joined you. He had whispered sweet nothings into your ear, apologising over and over again if he had been too rough on you as he cleaned you up.
After a long bath, he tucked you into bed before snuggling with you.
You smiled at the memory, as you finished tying your hair up. You walked out of the bathroom, your eyes falling on a still sleeping cheol, his fluffy hair all over his face and his mouth slightly agape, soft breaths falling from his full lips.
Giggling quietly, you grabbed your phone from the bedside table before walking out of his room slowly.
The morning light shone through the windows into the dorm room, as you limped into the kitchen, you needed something hot, preferably tea to ease your aching muscles.
"Good morning," you heard Jun's voice, breaking the silence around the dorm.
"Morning," you said back, turning to look at him as you placed your tea bag in the cup of hot water.
"Your up early," he mumbled, yawning loudly as he stretched, making you giggle.
"Yeah...I got hungry...you want some tea?" You asked, pointing to your cup, making him shake his head.
"Nah it's okay, I just want some milk," he replied, walking to the fridge.
"Morning baby," you heard from behind you, making you jump a little.
You turned around, smiling once your eyes laid on Seungcheol's warm ones. Although you were a bit anxious to be near him especially when Jun was there, you still hugged him, before pecking his lips.
"Morning," you whispered, letting go of him as you turned back around to finish your tea.
"Good Morning Jun," Seungcheol said before wrapping his arms around your waist, hugging you from behind.
You winced as his arms pressed into your aching skin, but you tried to ignore it.
"Morning hyung....slept well?" He asked, winking at Seungcheol before pouring himself a glass of milk.
"Very well, how about you?" He replied, kissing your neck shamelessly in front of him, making you squirm in his touch, your cheeks heating up.
"Yeah pretty good..." He trailed off, throwing a sly smirk at the both of you before putting his empty glass in the sink.
"Well I'm off to get some groceries, before the others come home to kill me...it's my turn for this week," Jun said, making you laugh.
"Wanna come?" He asked you, tilting his head a little.
You were about to reply yes but Seungcheol bet you to it.
"I'm taking her out somewhere so sorry, she can't come," he said, making Jun shrug.
"Okay, have fun guys..and Y/N...maybe wear something else," he added, before walking towards the door.
You looked down at Seungcheol's hoodie that you were wearing, your eyes growing bigger when you realised it failed to cover all the marks on your neck.
Seungcheol chuckled, nuzzling his face into your neck making you laugh as it tickled you softly.
"Hey cheol...were you serious about going out?" You asked, as you felt him place kisses all over your neck.
"Yeah I was...I have a place in mind, your going to love it," he said, before kissing your cheek.
"Alright, but first can we go to my apartment so I can get some decent clothes?" You asked, making Seungcheol chuckle, his dimples on full display.
"Yeah your right let's go."
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|| haikyuu boys finding you asleep on the couch after an argument ||
includes: kuroo tetsurou, miya osamu, & oikawa tooru
a/n- hello! sorry for posting so late, but this has been sitting in my drafts for a while and i was actually in the mood to finish it so i hope yall enjoy! oh and im not really sure about how i feel about it,,, might take it down later we shall see.
warnings: none ( lmk if there’s anything! )
KUROO -
last night you saw a post kuroo’s “work wife” had made on instagram with her kissing him on the cheek, and it didn’t make you feel the best, so you decided to bring it up to him the next morning. and you did, just as he was getting ready for work you talked to him about it.
you were standing in front of him filled with anger arguing about how it made you uncomfortable, “can you please listen?! i dont feel comfortable with your “work wife” kissing you?” you yelled. “Y/N it was on the cheek its not a big deal!” and to be honest you just wanted to cry.
finally, he walked past you and opened the door. “i don’t have time for this y/n, stop being so insecure! at least she wouldn’t argue over something so small!” and with that, he slammed the door and you stood there stunned. kuroo knew that he shouldn’t have said that, instant regret and guilt filled his gut.
but he already said it, he can’t do anything about it now. with a frustrated sigh, he went to work. hoping to fix everything when he gets home. you stood there speechless, as you realized you still had work so slowly you made your way to the bathroom.
after getting ready and grabbing a quick snack you were out the door with a heavy chest. once you get home, tired and feeling worse than before. you trudged to the couch and plopped down letting out a shaky sigh remembering the argument and the words he said repeating in your head.
you broke down crying, and before you knew it, the exhaustion from today took over and you were sound asleep on the couch. kuroo got home an hour later, he felt guilty and was already practicing how he’d apologize to you as he walked in.“y/n? kitten?” no answer.
he called out again, and was met with silence, he made his way over to the living room where he found you sleeping on the couch. gently walking towards you he knelt down, and saw your tear-stained face which made his heart sink. “i fucked up” he said to himself.
giving you a gentle kiss on your forehead he softly apologized and carried you to the bedroom. you ended up waking up when you felt his body weight dent the bed. “tetsu?” you said softly squinting at him. relief rushes through his body at the sound of his nickname. looking at you with guilt in his eyes
“im so sorry kitten, i shouldn’t have said that. i didn’t mean to hurt you” he said gently. at that tears started flowing again and he was quick to hug you and wipe your tears with his other hand. “it’s ok, i shouldn’t have been so insecure anyways”
he shook his head with a frown “no it’s not your fault ok? i didn’t mean anything i said. i love you so so much and i’m so lucky that you’re mine” you look up at him and gave him a small smile “okay” before cuddling closer to him. giving you a soft kiss on the lips he hugged you tighter as you both fell asleep.
OSAMU -
osamu was just having a horrible day, his head was pounding and the customers he had to deal with today were just plain rude. then he had to do most of the work since one of his employees called in sick, and for some reason, everything just annoyed him.
you on the other hand did not know about his day at all and thought it would be nice of you to make a surprise visit. walking in with a huge smile on your face stopping midway when you realize he wasn’t at the counter. “where’s samu?” you asked sweetly to the employee
“he’s in the back, i think he has a headache,” she says giving you a small smile. you can tell something was off by the way she spoke but decided to just brush it off and make your way to the back. “hi samu! surprise!” you exclaimed cheerfully as you make your way towards him
he just kind of looks at you, which you thought was weird, but you decided to hug him anyways. when he doesn’t hug you back and groan, you pull away and look at him “baby i heard you had a headache. i didn’t bring any medicine, but we could eat first and i-”
you couldn’t even finish your sentence since osamu just stood up. he was infuriated and had no clue why, usually loved listening to you but today he was just annoyed. “look y/n a don’t mean ta be rude, but a don't have the energy for this right now. please just go home.” he said coldly staring right at you.
“excuse me? i came here to surprise you and this is what i get??” you said in shock, voice a little louder this time. rolling his eyes “Oh wow am so surprised! now will ya please go home? a don’t wanna argue right now!” he yelled. with tears forming in your eyes you quickly wiped them and left. osamu knew he shouldn’t have said all that, but he was too mad to run after you in front of all the customers.
you rushed home and sluggishly made your way to your room to change into something comfier, making your way to the couch, curling up into a ball allowing your tears to fall, and somehow falling asleep, after getting tired of crying. he gets home a few hours later, guilt building up in his stomach as he mentally slaps himself for the things he said.
walking into the living room he opened the lights and you were the first thing he noticed. seeing you curled up into a ball on the couch made his heart drop to his stomach. you on the other hand woke up because of the sudden change of lighting.
gradually adjusting your sight you see him and switch your gaze onto the floor when you saw him look at you too. seeing your puffy eyes he walks towards you slowly and sits beside you giving you enough space. “am sorry, a shouldn’t have taken my frustration out on ya.”
you look at him with watery eyes and his heart sinks “yea i was just trying to be nice, sorry i didn’t warn you before coming” he opened his arms and you instinctively scooted closer to him, he sighs “no a love it when you surprise me a was jus having a bad day a love ya so much ok?” finally hugging him “okay i love you too” giving you a quick kiss he offered to make you food and of course you said yes.
OIKAWA -
you love oikawa, and you’re very supportive and understanding especially when it comes to his career. but he has an awful habit of overworking himself and as much as you love him you can't bear the fact that you couldn’t even see him anymore.
he goes home late at night -as in you’re already sound asleep late- and when you do stay up to see him, he’s too tired to even keep a conversation. then the next morning he’s gone before you could even wake up. you’ve spoken to him about this many times, but alas nothing changed.
you woke up to an empty bed as usual, but today was different though, you’ve planned a dinner for about 2 weeks now. you were very excited because it’s been so long since you both spent some quality time together and he promised to come home early.
getting up you send him a little text reminding him of your dinner tonight, with a smile you head on over to the bathroom to get ready for work. once work was over you made a quick visit to the grocery store to buy the ingredients you’ll need to make tonight’s dinner.
quietly humming to yourself while going through each aisle, and double-checking your list to make sure you’re not missing anything while checking your phone here and there. oikawa still hasn’t replied “he must be busy,” you say to yourself as you send him another text about the dinner just in case. after about 30 minutes you get home rushing since it was already late, and immediately getting started on dinner.
once you're done you sat down and waited, and waited, and waited. it's been 4 hours. dinners cold and still no sign of your boyfriend. you decided to call him pissed off that he couldn’t even show up to one dinner, “hello? y/n i can't talk right now i still need to practice”
he said as soon as he picked up. “tooru? did you get my texts? what about dinner, we’ve made plans for this 2 weeks prior! i even-” you were cut off “look just eat without me ok? we can eat again somet-” now it was your turn to cut him off.
“oikawa tooru, you leave the house while i’m asleep and come back when i'm asleep. i just wanted to spend time with you..whatever good luck at practice,” you replied as you hang up. his heart sank when he heard the crack in your voice rushing to his car on his way home to you because he knows he fucked up.
buying your favorite flowers for you on the way home cursing himself and the world for making it traffic at that exact moment. when he got home the first thing he saw was the food and you fast asleep on the couch. he felt a pang of guilt about being late.
“y/n chan?” he said while gently waking you up. you stare at him with red puffy eyes and he hugged you giving you the flowers “im sorry baby, i should’ve prioritized you and our dinner. i promise ill do better” you saw how genuine he was being so you accepted the flowers and hugged him tighter as he offered to reheat the food you made.
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hey!! i love your writing and all the blurbs from your august prompts!! if it’s not taken yet could you do #9 from the angst list with kirby dach? :) could you maybe make it gender neutral if you could? i loved how you did the one with barzy as a gender neutral reader!!
angst #9. "i know it hurts, just let me help."
pairing: kirby dach x gn!reader word count: 1.2k warning: mentions of anxiety, depression is alluded to
Everyone always said things would get easier, that the feeling of dread and despair would go away. That the anxiety wouldn’t bubble up every day, and that you wouldn’t sit by your phone waiting for bad news to come through. Everyone said the techniques the doctor implemented and utilized would work, that the coping strategies would be useful, and you wouldn’t have to worry if you were diligent with them.
It wasn’t that you weren’t diligent. You practiced grounding techniques regularly, your mind focusing on the big five senses as you tried to calm yourself down. You did everything you could to maintain the anxiety, to maintain the worry and the constant spit of dread and negative thoughts that circulated your head.
Regardless of what people said, you still found yourself curled up in bed, the lights down low and the television blank as you curled yourself around a pillow. The text messages appearing on your screen went unanswered as you disregarded the sound of the buzzing, the time flying by as you lost track of it, the hours blending into each other as reality morphed into imaginability, and what was real couldn’t be differed from imaginary.
Bad days were inevitable, you knew that they happened so often you knew that they were inevitable. They came about more when Kirby was gone, the normal routine habits you practiced when he was home disregarded when he was on the road.
You didn’t even realize the streaks of liquid on your cheeks, or the grumble of your stomach, or the ache of your muscles, your body begging you to move, begging you to get out of bed. You just… couldn’t.
This bad day… wasn’t just a bad day. It had started as a bad week, the start of the week just as catastrophic as the end, and nothing had gone the way you wanted it to. It was one thing after the other, one more thing to drag you down, one more thing to push you into the well that Kirby and you had pulled yourself out of.
You barely acknowledged your phone as you heard the incessant buzzing, the sound so irritating you had to grab it, Kirby’s name flying across the screen as it asked whether or not you wanted to pick up. Pressing the accept button, you quickly put it on speaker and placed your head back on the pillow below.
“Hello?” the words mumbled out; a sigh of relief heard on the other end of the phone.
“Jesus, Y/N. I’ve been texting you all day, you haven’t answered anything. I was starting to get worried.”
Prepared to shrug your shoulders in response, you realized he wouldn’t be able to see it. “I’m fine, Kirb. Just been sleeping.”
“Is that Y/N? Let me say hi to them, Kirb… come on man, give us your phone,” you didn’t even feel the joy you usually did when Dylan and Adam tried to pull Kirby’s phone from his grip, a smile not even crossing your face.
“Get lost, fuckers. I’m trying to talk to them, go call your own partners or something… or do anything that doesn’t involve bothering me.”
You could hear the two boys mocking him through the phone, their voices lowering the further your boyfriend got from his teammates.
“You’ve just been sleeping huh? It’s almost 8pm, love. Have you even eaten anything today?” Kirby’s voice lowered, his worries evident in the way his tone softened, and his words became more pleading, more concerned.
“Haven’t been hungry, so no.”
A small groan fell from Kirby’s lips at your words. “You can’t just not eat, Y/N. We’ve talked about this. Even just a few snack things, my granola bars are still in your cupboard. Or even some pasta. I can UberEat’s you some food?”
“I’m fine, Kirby. I’m not hungry.”
A harsh laugh fell from Kirby’s end of the phone, “You’re not fine. You don’t spend all day in bed, not eat and not answer any of my texts when you’re fine.”
Pulling the comforter tighter around your body, you pressed your body flush against your body pillow as his words circulated throughout your head.
“I’m fine, I’ll be fine. Can I let you go; I want to go back to sleep? My body hurts, my head hurts, I’m exhausted, and I just want to sleep,” practically whimpering out the end of the sentence, you could feel your eyes squeezing shut as you tried to keep the tears at bay. You could feel your hands itching to rub against each other, your thumbs aching to push any movement to deter the thoughts running through your head.
Kirby’s going to get fed up with this. I’m too much for him, too much when I’m like this. I can’t deal with this right now. Not right now, not ever. He’s going to get fed up and leave, just like they all do, he doesn’t care enough for this.
“Y/N…”
“I’ll see you when you get home, Kirb. Have a safe slight.”
The hours passed by in a blur, sleep invading and evading your mind throughout the time, your mind shifting in and out of coherency. You barely even registered the bedroom door open, the light from the hallway flickering in and illuminating the front of the room.
You knew you probably looked like a mess, the clothes you had been wearing since last night still adorning your body, the sheets all rumbled, the room dark except for the television screen that had the ‘Are You Still Watching’ screen that had been present for hours. It looked like you hadn’t left your bed in days, and if Kirby were to guess that… you wouldn’t even be able to deny it.
“Yeah, yeah. Just got home, dad. Can I give you a call tomorrow? Yeah, Y/N’s home, just gonna watch a few shows with them and go to sleep, I promise I’ll call tomorrow. Yeah, yeah. Love you too, okay, bye. Yup, tell mom I said hey, okay.”
Dropping his phone on top of his travel bag, Kirby took in the room surrounding him, a small sigh crossing his lips when his eyes fell on you, your body still curled under the covers and wrapped around the pillow. Tugging off his suit jacket and pants, he crawled into bed, his back pressing against the headboard behind him.
“Y/N… I know it’s hard, and I know it hurts. Just let me help. That’s what I’m here for, please stop shutting me out, I love you. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t, please let me help.”
You could feel the onslaught of tears almost immediately, your body curling in Kirby’s direction as you tried to keep your composure from completely breaking.
“This week has just been… so terrible,” you whimpered out the words, Kirby’s hand pressing against your back as you sniffled, your hands going out to clutch to his body, a sense of comfort falling through your mind when you felt his warmth pressed into you.
“I know, love. I know. It’s okay, let it out. I’m here, I’m here to help, it’s okay. It’s okay, let it out.”
His lips pressed to the crown of your head, your breathing shallow as you tried to get a grasp of the air leaving your lips. Everything from the week was finally crashing down around you, the sobs bubbling up in your throat, Kirby’s hand rubbing soothing circles into your back as the tears fell down your cheeks.
“I’m here, okay? I’m always here. We’ll work through this together, I promise. I’m sorry you had such an awful week, I’m here to help. I love you.”
note: ah thank you so much for requesting <3 im so happy to hear you loved the barzy one, so i hope you love this one just as much!
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Gestures are louder than words - Fd!au
This fanfiction is based on the Family Dynamic au made by @antarctic-bay if you would like to know more, go check them out!!!
Also please bear in mind that the things written in this might not be canon!
Of course, this fic was grammatically corrected by the amazing @im-default
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To get a better context, read this first, if you don't want to, have a quick summary :)
Tommy comes back home in a very bad mood, Wilbur and Phil are concerned but end up making the situation worse, but Techno knows how to make Tommy talk : ASL (American sign language.
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Warnings! Bullying, repressed anger, yelling, angst, hoo boy angst, crying, angst with a good ending, fluff and brother bonding moment :)
(The cursive and bold words are meant to be when they speak in gestures)
Enjoy~
“Ah, welcome back Tommy!” The inviting smell coming from whatever Phil was cooking welcomed him in just like his brother, both of which reminded him of his oopsie: He arrived home late.
Well… Phil did end his shift early, but arriving home after him for all of the brothers meant “they stayed out too late” since he always arrived home deep into the night.
“T-thanks...” Tommy sighed, Wilbur was on the counter, too absorbed into his algebra problems to notice him. Techno was nowhere to be seen but he wasn’t surprised, his door was closed so…you could imagine where he was, hint: when he wasn’t home his room’s door was open.
Closing himself in his room, he allowed his back to slide down the door until he sat on the floor, bringing his knees to his chest and squeezing them tight.
He wasn’t sad, he wasn’t crying, he was simply angry, hoo boy he was angry.
Taking a deep breath, he got up and sat at his desk, grabbing a notebook out of his backpack.
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“You go around with a plushie? Pff, what a child…” Tubbo reached out for his bee plushie “Give me Spins back!”, needlessly since another bully pushed him on the ground.
“Aw~ the doggy wants his toy?”
“Give. It. Back.” Tommy appeared behind the bullies, shoving one of them onto the ground.
“Oh my… the Ally of Justice, The Protector of the Weak!” one mocked him.
As a punch was about to hit the bully’s face, a teacher arrived and stopped both of them, blaming it more on Tommy than the real bully, sending them both home.
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The music from his headphones brought him back to reality, scribbling down words for his English homework, god he was pissed.
How dare they bully Tubbo! And for his plushie Spins! Of course, he had already made a plan on how to get back at them, no one messes with his best friend without paying for it, yet he still couldn’t see that situation as a win for the bullies.
The teacher always saw him as the one at fault, he was the “Black Sheep” of the Pandel brothers, the disgrace of the fami-
A knock interrupted his train of thoughts, “Dinner is ready! Come wash your hands, you gremlin” came from behind the door, a distant “That’s kinda mean Will” accompanied it.
He sat at the table, one of the chairs was empty: Techno was missing, but what’s new? It was his habit to skip dinner, Tommy wondered if he would have skipped tonight’s one too.
“Techno! Food’s ready, come eat!” Phil half-shouted while serving the food, all of them stood quietly waiting for the response.
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“Techno?” Phil took off the potholders and peeked into his room, a muffled “Kinda busy right now, I’ll come at the table in a minute” came his response.
Phil’s cuisine had always been better than restaurant’s in Tommy’s eyes, and the omelette with bacon and cheese he had prepared today was just like everything else he cooked: amazing.
Tommy once asked Phil where he had learned how to cook so well, his response was a simple “Mom and dad were both very good at cooking, you’d also be surprised how much you can learn from watching videos” kinda cliche, but fair enough.
“How was your day at school boys?” Phil asked after swallowing down a bite, Tommy gestured at Will to go first.
“All and all, my day went pretty well. Had a test but it was quite easy, Nikki and I also went to a bar and chatted ‘till it was time to go back, pretty chill day.” Wilbur nodded at his own thoughts and drank some water, then both of them looked at Tommy.
“What” He stared back, eyes flickering between the two brothers.
“So? How was your day?” Will encouraged him to talk, Tommy rolled his eyes. “Nothin’ special” he started, ”The history teacher scolded me for chewing a gum in class and…” after a deep breath and a couple of thoughts processed, “N-nothing else happened.” he decided to stay quiet. He couldn’t be bothered to explain the whole thing to them, especially since Phil could scold him for punching that dick-bag in the face, that would just put him in an even worse mood.
But of course, his brothers wouldn’t let that slide.
“Are you sure that’s all it happened? You don’t look like someone who had a “Nothing special” kinda day.” Will had always been curious, maybe too curious at times, Phil also nodded: They weren’t blind, they could see that Tommy wasn’t in a good mood.
“Oh come on Will, I was the one who lived my day, I’m telling you, nothing special happened!” Techno emerged from his room and grabbed a plate, no one really noticed him though. Tommy shoved a bite in his mouth to avoid saying more than he should.
“I know we are being kinda pushy Tommy but-” “Yes!!! You are being very pushy Phil!!!” At this point, he couldn’t hold it in, he wasn’t mad at them… but the rage he had suppressed before to avoid making a scene at school had to get out somehow.
“We are just worried about you Tommy! Show some appreciation!” Will stood up for Phil: the brothers didn’t like it when someone yelled at or didn’t treat their older brother well, many times Tommy had done what Wilbur was doing, but his mind wasn’t calm enough to think right now.
“Oh?! Worried?! For me?! If you would really be worried you would just LEAVE ME BE!!!” He turned around and slammed as hard as he could the door shut, the noise echoed through the Pandel house, then silence.
Tommy took his pillow and started punching it, letting the anger and tension out, after a couple of swings, he threw it to the other side of the room.
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The rest of the Pandel brothers ate in silence, each of them absorbed into their own thoughts about the same topic: Tommy.
“So…Who is gonna go talk to him?” Wilbur broke the silence. “It’s better if no one goes talk to him right now, you heard him, he wants to be left alone.” Will looked at Phil “But we can’t leave him in that state! We have to-!” the older one finished his sentence “Help him, I know, but talking to him now will only make things worse, so let’s wait until he comes out” He stood up and grabbed Tommy’s plate, Phil moved what he left into a small container. “And if someone should talk to him” He opened the fridge, “It should be Techno, he has more chances of talking to him without an immediate rejection” Wilbur stared at the food in his plate in defeat, Techno simply nodded and ate the last bite of omelette: He even might have an idea on how to approach him.
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Tommy left his room as Techno entered his, to put up his plan he had to stay in the living room, so that’s what he was going to do.
He grabbed what he needed to study and sat at the very end of the counter, immediately focusing on the textbook in front of him.
After Tommy looked at Techno weird since he rarely studied in the living room, he opened the fridge and grabbed a glass, filled it with milk, and went back to the sofa where he had dropped off his switch, sitting down and plugging in the earphones, he started playing “Breath of the Wild”. Tubbo had already finished it and Tommy wanted to try it out, being too broke to buy it, Tubbo lent his out of pity.
“Techno can you help me with this?” Will approached the counter with his textbook in hand, the pen in the other hand was busy scratching his head “I keep getting the wrong result and I don’t know-”
“No” He replied without taking his eyes off of his textbook, “Awww come on! I need to do this for tomorrow!” Techno sighed and patted the seat next to his, closing his homework to make room for Wilbur’s.
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Almost an hour had passed and Techno had both helped Wilbur, who was now doing other work next to him and had finished his own stuff, he stretched his arms and back gaining a smile from Phil who was also working on his old pc.
After pouring a glass of milk for the rest of the brothers, including himself, he drank it all down and flopped on the sofa right in front of Tommy, who looked up to see why the seat had moved and then went back to his game.
Techno sat in a more comfortable position and started to tap on Tommy’s leg with his foot to grab his attention.
At first, all he got was some annoyed sounds, then his legs were pushing him away, and finally, he got his attention.
“What?!” He barked, eyes fixed on his smirking face. For any other person, Techno simply started waving his hands around while mouthing words, but for Tommy that was way more, that was Sign language.
What are you doing? Tommy rolled his eyes and placed his Switch on his lap, I don’t want to talk right now, Techno snickered, As if you have a choice. The younger one sighed.
At the start of the year, Tommy wasn’t doing so good with grades, his problem was that he couldn’t remember anything no matter how hard he tried. Yet Techno had noticed how he could remember fighting moves (taught to him by Deo) and other stuff pretty easily, his solution? Sign language.
The sentences were very short to gesture and way easier to remember, like that, Tommy’s grades went up in no time.
As a consequence, Techno and Tommy were the only one in the house that knew how to talk in ASl (American Sign Language), so of course, they used it to share secrets or just to annoy Wilbur since he couldn’t understand.
They also used it to talk in the cafeteria to either insult each other without getting scolded or to have a normal conversation. It was their own special way of communicating and bonding over stuff.
I know that Will and Phil bothered you about your mood, but you seriously need to let it out, his body got stiff as a self-defence mechanism, Unless you want to become a ticking time-bomb and explode near someone you care about... again.
Tommy’s eyes widened at the flashback of him shouting at Deo for something he hadn’t done came back, he was so mad he insulted his dear friend heavily, it took him an entire week to make the guilt go away and another two weeks to muster up the courage he needed to talk to him again. Deo forgave him but… to this day, Tommy still hadn’t forgiven himself.
After a minute of zoning out, he started gesturing and mouthing again:
Two students started making fun of Tubbo and I intervened, I punched one of them but… Techno’s arms were crossed as he was reading what Tommy was saying, Let me guess Wilbur looked up from his textbook and saw Techno gesturing, he wanted to yell at them to use their voices so bad… but he had to endure it this time… for Tommy’s sake.
A teacher walked in just as you punched him, blamed it on you, and sent you both home? Tommy looked at the console in his lap and slowly nodded, Techno sighed and patted the empty space next to him, smiling at the blonde boy.
Tommy crawled to the spot and hugged Techno, who just embraced him tightly while caressing his back in comfort, and the bomb, slowly defused itself: Tommy started sobbing, letting his emotions out.
“I’ll help you avenge him tomorrow” Techno whispered just before grabbing a blanket and wrapping it around the both of them, “We’ll make them pay, I promise Tommy” Tommy nodded and got even closer to Techno.
A shaky “T-thank you…” was all that came out of Tommy’s mouth before more sobs took over.
Will, who saw the whole scene, shook Phils arm lightly, pointing at the younger brothers.
He smiled at them and looked back at Wilbur, who leaned to whisper in his ear “Let them be” to then pat his shoulder.
Wilbur looked back at Techno and Tommy and smiled too.
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Fickle Love (Akaashi x Reader x Bokuto)
A/N: So this was supposed to be for Akaashi's birthday...whoops. But its here now lmao ngl I just kinda wrote with no idea in mind and this is what ended happening so yeah. Hope you enjoy and happy late birthday to Akaashi 💞
Details: 7.8 pages 2,758 words
Date: December 8th, 2020
Warnings: Mentions of poly relationships I guess, angst if you squint, Gn! Reader not really a warning but I didn't know where else to put it
Theme: Akaashi wasn't the best when it came to love. Having a habit of ignoring you and burying himself in work. Leading you to turn to Bokuto which leads to some revelations and a question for Akaashi.
Love was a fickle thing Akaashi knew. People fell in and out of love all the time so he never trusted love. He didn't want love he wanted to avoid it. Avoid the heartbreak he was positive would follow. But instead he met you a bright-eyed student in his class. It took almost nothing for you to mesh yourself into his life completely and making yourself comfortable like you belonged there.
It took even less time for you to weasel your way into his heart and make yourself comfortable. Only a year after you'd met and he asked you out deciding that love may not have been as fickle as he thought.
Four years later and he knew he had been wrong love was indeed fickle and his proof was in the sight across the street from him. There you stood hands clasped around Bokuto's as he kissed your cheek. He waved before running off and Akaashi rushed home preparing for the worst.
A few hours later you slipped through the door "Keiji? I'm home!" You called hearing the soft pads of feet come up to you. Love was fickle he knew you were going to lie when he asked his next question "Hey Y/n. What did you do today?" You suprised him though. Only after you'd gotten over the shock of being called Y/n and not darling.
"I went to lunch with Bokuto today," You said happily slipping off your coat and hanging it up. He certainly didn't expect you to be honest about what you did today. He loosened up a tad bit in response "Oh? Why?" You laughed at his question "Bo needs contact with us you know that. But you haven't been answering his calls so we went shopping and I filled him in on how you were. Afterwards I treated him to lunch as a thank you," You smiled up at him eyes bright with nothing hidden.
"Yeah? Did you guys hold hands so he wouldn't lose you?" He joked and you shook your head "He grabbed my hands at the end of lunch because I promised him I'd bring you next time," you had laughed remembering the incident. Relief flooded him then no of course you weren't cheating on him that'd be insane. You were as loyal as Bokuto was plus he couldn't keep a secret to save his life and neither could you. He relaxed as he realized how wrong he was to assume something.
"Im sorry," He said suddenly while you tilted your head in confusion. "What for?" You had asked before Akaashi leaned down and pressed a kiss to your forehead. "I forgot to give you your welcome home kiss," He rolled off casually hiding the fear he'd felt earlier. This fear had only continued to grow as the days went on but it was his fault anyway.
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"Keiji are you free today?" "No I'm busy," "Oh...Okay,"
"Keiji we haven't gone on a date in weeks!" "Im not stopping you from going out somewhere," "I want to go out with you though,"
"Keiji-" "Im busy Y/n,"
Two weeks this cycle continued as you walked to Akaashi's at home office. Two taps against the door and you opened it "Kei-" His eyes snapped up frustration was on his face but he took a breath before it faded. "What?" You sighed turning to leave again "...Im going out to lunch with Kotaro again. He says hi by the way," You left the room quickly and Akaashi blinked 'Kotaro?' Surely you meant Bokuto but there was no way you two were on a first name basis it'd only been a few days since the last lunch.
His eyes landed on the calender and he froze what had only been a few days to him was actually two weeks but still too short for a first name basis. You'd only know Bokuto for a few months and he'd known the male for years and still never used his first name.
He sighed returning to his work. He'd question you when you got back from lunch he didn't have the time to right now. Nor did he know your location so going to find you was like a needle in a haystack. A very big bustling city of a haystack and the needle being you with a slightly bigger needle in the shape of a volleyball player next to you.
He continued work for a few hours before his office door was thrown open. He expected many things when he looked up but he didn't expect Bokuto. But what got him was the fact that Bokuto was furious it was a look he'd never seen before on him. The glare he had on his face was enough to make Akaashi freeze.
He knew Bokuto was typically happy like a dog but right now he felt fearful since now he staring down an angry German Shepard who was defending their owner. It was silent for a long moment before Bokuto spoke. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" Akaashi felt his blood turn to ice at the tone Bokuto used.
"W-what?" He cursed silently at his own stutter Bokuto would latch onto the weakness he showed. "Whats today Akaashi?" Bokuto had asked in that same icy tone. It was so razor sharp and cold that Akaashi was convinced the room cooled and ten degrees.
"...Its December 1st Bokuto-san," He elected to answer the question instead of ask why Bokuto didn't call him Keiji. Based on the mood Bokuto was displaying he didn't expect to be called Keiji. However supplying the date only seemed to rile him up more as his glare sharpened.
Akaashi shivered involuntarily at it "Are you forgetting something?" He barked out and it was then that Akaashi realized Bokuto hadn't blinked yet. "No," he was confident in the answer. Your birthday wasn't until b/d and his was in four days. Bokutos had already passed but said male wouldn't have been mad at him. Sad maybe but not mad.
"Oh really? Then tell me why Y/n is at my place crying because you forgot that today is your anniversary," Bokuto had stepped towards him in anger and Akaashi took in involuntarily step back in fear. "They're at your place?" Akaashi asked and Bokutos jaw clenched.
"Yeah. And they are going to stay there until you sort yourself out," Bokuto growled turning and slamming the door closed with enough force to crack it. Akaashi stood frozen for a few extra moments trying to regain his composure after being afraid. He shook his head as he processed Bokuto's last sentence.
No you'd always come back to him, even if a fight had broken out between him and you, you would always come back. You had to come back he was your fiancé and the wedding was going to be in the upcoming w/f/s/s so he continued to work shaking off his encounter with Bokuto that had manage to worm a tiny bit of fear back into his heart.
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Akaashi didn't fully leave his office again until December 5th. He'd left it plenty of times before then but only for something quick eat or the bathroom or something to drink. In these moments he never bothered to look around the place but now on his birthday he did.
He expected to be greeted by your sparkling voice like you had done for the past four years but instead the house was silent. "Y/n?" He called out walking around the house was still perfectly clean. The last time he could recall hearing you was on the first with the vacuum running and the patter of your feet running around.
Since then he realizes the house had been silent except for his movements. As he walked into the dining room something glinted on the table in the early morning light. When he turned to look he froze there was your engagement ring. The thin band of silver sat there almost mockingly on a yellow sticky note.
He picked up the note and written on it were a few simple words. 'They aren't coming home - Bokuto' his brain filled in the missing words Bokuto had told him a few days ago "Not until I fix myself," he mumbled thumbing at the sticky in his hands. He knew what Bokuto meant he'd been borderline ignoring you for weeks to work.
Thoughts of your anniversary had left his mind but he didn't think it was that bad until right now. Forgetting had been the final nail in the coffin for you but he still had a chance. You weren't gone forever just temporarily misplaced. He rushed to shower and go buy flowers his brain running a mile a minute trying to figure out how to get you back and apologize.
He felt nervous and he was unsure of why until he remembered where you had taken up residence. Bokuto had never been scary to him, just a bright ball of happiness but the fear Bokuto had instilled in him a few days ago had lingered, and he was about to walk right into the lion's den.
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He couldn't see you as he approached the door. Maybe you were tucked away upstairs or in a place the windows didn't show but he'd seen Bokuto. The male was pacing clearly on edge and definitely dangerous but Akaashi would have to face him sooner or later so with a shaking hand he knocked.
Only half a second later the door swung open and Bokuto stood there mouth set in a hard line. Akaashi fought to supress the shiver that wanted to trail up his spine. "Is Y/n here?" He asked and once again cursed himself for sounding so meek. It was just Bokuto he wouldn't hurt him the man couldn't even hurt a fly! Although that sentiment didn't hold much when he felt like he was staring down the loaded barrel of a gun.
"Yes," Bokuto answered after a few beats of silence. His eyes raked over Akaashi's form judging him and seeing if he was ready to have Y/n back. "Can I see them? I'd like to talk," He was definitely playing with fire when Bokuto looked back up at his eyes. "About what?" He asked lowly Akaashi noted that Bokuto was staying quiet which meant you had to be downstairs. "I'd like to apologize for ignoring them and forgetting our anniversary," Bokuto nodded once before swinging the door closed.
He blinked in mild suprise "Bo-Bokuto-san?" He questioned wondering where he went wrong that warranted the door being closed. He was about to knock again when the door opened revealing you. Your h/c hair was slightly messy and e/c eyes half lidded in sleep.
What Akaashi didn't like was the MSBY jersey that swallowed you figure. The number 12 emblazoned on the front and long enough to cover your thighs. He couldn't tell if you were wearing pants but he hoped you did. You never walked around his house like this unless it was after a fun night but he couldn't assume things. Not now and he especially couldn't accuse you of cheating when Bokuto was on the staircase right behind you.
He could see that the golden eyed male was poised to attack when the conversation would start heading south. You tilted your head in confusion "Hello Akaashi," You had mumbled and he did flinch then. No pet names or his first name no, you had decided on formal. "Hi darling," He whispered the pet name but you merely shook your head.
"Why are you here?" The genuine confusion on your face made Akaashi feel a lot worse about everything. "Im here to apologize and seeing as its my birthday id like my present from you to be going on one date with me," He said slowly "Please," was tacked on as an afterthought. You turned your head eyes meeting Bokuto's and Akaashi hated the jealousy that crawled up his spine when his eyes softened.
"Um actually Akaashi I wanted to talk to you about something," Your hands had balled into fists tightly gripping the hem of the shirt you wore. A nervous habit you had whenever something scared you. He felt his heart drop in response to those words and you shook your head. "No no! It's nothing bad- well I guess that depends on how you feel about it," You were quick to try and sooth him and Akaashis heart swelled at the fact that right now even if you weren't getting along you still worried about him.
He didn't even realize you had led him inside until he was on the couch. His eyes trailed over you figure as you sat across from him. The shirt rode up enough exposing part of your thigh and Akaashi could see the hem of a pair of shorts. They followed their path until his eyes rested on the new gold band around your ring finger. It was decorated in a series of small gems that were the same blue as his eyes and he took a deep breath.
"What is it?" He lightly questioned when the silence began suffocating him. Bokuto was behind him somewhere he felt the stare being burned into his back. The second this conversation possibly turned south Bokuto was ready to jump in. "Well...I was wondering how you felt about the two of us becoming um...three of us?" You looked down afterwards hands nervously ringing together.
"...three of us?" He wanted more clarification were you implying a kid or something else? You hummed meeting his eyes before they flickered to the male that was behind him 'oh' it pieced itself together then. You were implying a poly relationship with him and Bokuto. He must have been quiet for too long since your hands began rubbing at your sides.
He scrambled for an answer he knew he was unbothered by it but this was...The two of you were only a few months away from getting married and you wanted to add Bokuto into the mix? Now of all times? He took a shuttering breath as he thought.
"Well...I guess I have to call the restaurant and tell them to change the reservation for three people then," he offered a small smile and your head whipped up. "Really?" You whispered and he could only supply a nod.
"Yeah now when I'm busy with work the both of you can harass me into taking a break," it was a poor attempt at a joke but you had laughed anyway. He heard a chuckle from behind him as well and he breathed out a sigh of relief. "Keiji are you sure? I don't wanna make you uncomfortable or anything...," you trailed off and he smiled "im sure but are you sure about Bokuto? Hes a little chaotic," He asked "Hey!" Bokuto had an immediate reaction to the accusation.
You laughed reaching out and taking his hand "So is it a fancy dinner place?" You asked as Bokuto came over to take your free hand. He watched your thumb move back and forth across Bokutos hand a comforting gesture and he noticed the minute shake of Bokuto's hand. Unconsciously he reached out with his free hand and took Bokuto's which seemed to startle him slightly as wide gold eyes met his.
Akaashi gave a light squeeze and Bokuto settled with a sigh. "Its the restaurant I originally proposed at so yeah I'd go with fancy," he answered after a second. "You're making me get dressed up for your birthday dinner? Despicable really," you dramatically sighed and he found himself laughing. "Well I suppose we don't have to go since you've already given me the best present I could ask for today," He smiled tilting his head to the side and looking at Bokuto who was sitting cross-legged on the floor with a look of concern on his face.
"You alright Bo?" He looked up at the unfamiliar nickname eyes meeting Akaashi's once again. "M'fine just...I don't own a suit," He said quietly. The silence that stretched afterwards for a long moment before you broke it. "Kotaro what do you mean you don't own a suit you're a professional athlete!" "It wasn't an issue until now!" He shouted back love was fickle yes but as he watched you and Bokuto interact he knew
It was fickle but he wouldn't trade it in for anything.
#haikyu#haikyu x reader#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu!!#whosaskingfluff#akaashi x reader#koutarou bokuto#keiji akaashi#bokuto x reader#bokuto fluff#akaashi fluff
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Intro and guide
Today we'll get into movies,music,foodie treats,jokes,funny and weird facts and not forgetting the dessert: ecofriendly tips and celebrity gossip😌🤫🤭 Yall get comfy and get your reading glasses on.
Must watch movies.
Okay everyone I'm talking to is like shell shocked that's its already the holidays and they still haven't finished what they set up to do they just got too comfy and let the year slip them by all except me.
Anyways I thought of giving you guys a list of movies to catch up with before this year ends. Only two movies per post. Less talkie more listing danie.
Venom: Let there be carnage If you're a huge venom fan like me then you could have probably seen this one coming . Good old Eddie is still struggling to coexist with venom(like living and sharing your body isn't already impossible he's a freaking ALIEN)a serial killer becomes host to another symbiote and for crying out loud a killer and a man eater what a duo. Like talk about a match made in hell.So Good old Eddie and venom need to set aside their differences to save the world AGAIN🙄. At this point I'm so done because doesnt even know what hes doing for them and I always want to be appreciated even when I dont deserve it so I dont get how he does this.Guys like check it out and tell me.
The suicide squad.
If you're squeamish this movie definitely ain't for you.I mean I watched withal my siblings and I tell you no one was ready to eat after the movie even the hugest foodies in the family like....no words.In the movie the government sends the most dangerous supervillains in the world -- Bloodsport, Peacemaker, King Shark, Harley Quinn and others -- to the remote, enemy-infused island of Corto Maltese. Armed with high-tech weapons to find and destroy something in exchange for lighter sentences like 😑.And guess who does this the US government AS USUAL and when they get there after the crazy stuff they go through they find out that they're just covering up the government's mess.I know what you're going to say danie they're psycho killers danie but even they wouldn't perform experiments on other humans damn it some of them are products of experiments. Just watch it yourself otherwise you won't get what I'm ranting about.
Nothing more for this post more movies in the next post we can all agree I've ranted enough.
Trophie tracks
For me. As I said before God knows Im so into music there's almost no way back.And so to keep my post short here my trophie tracks
Butter.
I love this song so much I can't put it in words I could just
There's no saving me🤤.
Good 4 you.
Danie loves herself a good breakup song my obsession with this song I listen to it like almost every day.
PTD Permission To Dance
We don't need permission to dance that's all If I say more I'll ruin it.
Bad habits.
My 8 yr old brothers misheard lyrics led me to this one. Our house is so weird and I'm telling you it has the most... ummmh...just if you could hear the misheard lyrics. You'd be like
Ghost.
Considering how many deaths we've heard in the past few year all I honestly need to do is listen to this song that explains so many of our emotions. Because it's so hard to move on sometimes after we've been through something that we need to realize that the key to moving on isn't forgetting the past its accepting that its happened and making it apart of your present.
Slightly foodie
Now I'm hungry so heres a recipe for an easy lunch recipe, dessert and a quick dinner
Buddha bowls This is so easy and healthy all you need to is add
1 cup of maize
1/2 cup of beans
2 handfuls of lettuce
1 handful of onions
Then sprinkle with salt and pepper
And top with avocado (optional)
Ginger Tamarind ice pops.
Start by combining ginger Tamarind tea leaves in cold water
Then put this mixture into a saucepan
Let it boil and then add chocolate to taste
Then here I dont like to make ice pops personally so you can take it as tea.
But back to the ice pop recipe.
Let it cool then put it in the freezer for a considerably long time about 6 to 8 hrs.
Jamaica jerk chicken with sweet potatoes
In a large bowl toss chicken pieces with jerk seasoning
1/4 tsp salt and remaining tsp oil until coated
Arrange chicken in a pan and roast 25 mins or until juices run clear when thickest part of chicken is pierced with the tip of a knife.
Serve chicken with sweet potatoes and green onions .
Ok that dinner recipe ain't quick. APOLOGIES.
Dad Joke:
What did the snowflake say to the leaf?
You're so last season.
Eco friendly tip:
Using plastic bags is out of fashion🙄 and pollutes 🤢the environment so please a reusable bag🤓
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Hello, Are You There? || Part 1
Minako tries the number neighbor thing. Thinking it was an inactive number, she decides to vent and express her frustrations, turning it into a sort of mini diary. What she didn’t expect was somebody was actually on the other line and decided to send a message back.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
Word Count: 3.4k+
Pairing: Akihiko Sanada x Minako Arisato
Note: alternate universe where there are no demons, no dark hour and therefore no SEES. also, minato and minako are twins :3 this was something i started writing out of nowhere, so please tell me if there are any spelling errors!
Minako was the type to be able to handle herself. She is always there for her friends, giving them support when needed and cheering them on. However, when it came to herself, she didn’t like opening up. It wasn’t because she didn’t trust her friends, or secretly hated them. No, that is not the case. She is simply afraid because she believes that opening up and telling others about her deepest, darkest fears will make her vulnerable and weak. She didn’t like that one bit.
She believes that she always has to be strong.
Being the older sister(by five minutes), and the one in charge of taking care of Minato because her parents are working abroad, she thinks that she always has to be strong.
Of course, sooner or later she will have to realize that she can’t always be strong.
/./
Classes just ended, and Minako decided to have a cup of coffee at Chagall Café along with Yukari and Fuuka for some quality girl time.
“Have you heard of this trend? It’s an old one but I found it interesting.” Yukari asks, shoving her phone at Fuuka and Minako. The latter shakes her head, while Fuuka studies the image on Yukari���s phone.
“What is it about?” Minako inquires, seemingly uninterested. Yukari didn’t notice it though.
“Basically, get your phone number and change the last digit into the neighboring numbers. And then you send a message.” Yukari answered, taking back her phone.
“Oh, what happens next?” Fuuka asks, not quite understanding the purpose.
“Well, they’ll reply. And maybe you’ll get a new friend.” Yukari states, with a big smile on her face.
“Oh… that’s quite... um...” Fuuka trails off, not knowing how to finish her sentence.
“Lame.” Minako interjected.
Yukari laughed. “Of course you would say that! But why not try it? You may get something out of it... like maybe a relationship?”
Minako scrunches her eyebrows, absolutely weirded out by how the thought of that idea did a big jump. “That seems like a reach. But anyways, I don’t need to be in a relationship! I’m already happy I got you guys!”
Yukari snorted, while Fuuka gave a big smile, “I’m happy I have you guys, too.”
“Okay but I want to try it at least once.”
“Then you do it yourself, Yukari.”
“No! I want to do it with you guys! What do you think, Fuuka?”
“It wouldn’t hurt to try…”
“Seriously Fuuka?”
“Fuuka already agreed! Two against one!”
“Fine… But only once, okay? If they don’t reply, then that’s it.”
“Pfft, sure!”
/./
Of course, Minako didn’t really expect a reply. After all, who in their right minds would reply to a random number texting ‘Hey there number neighbor!’. She is sure as hell she wouldn’t. Thinking that her number neighbor might be an inactive number, she decides not to dwell on it anymore as she prepares dinner for her and Minato.
At the sound of the door opening and some keys being carelessly thrown somewhere reaches her ears, Minako smiles at the thought that her younger brother is home. She puts on a big smile to greet her brother, “Minato, welcome home!”
Minato just grunted in reply. She knows this mood of his. He probably had a bad day, and when Minato is having a bad day, he doesn’t have the energy to talk or interact with other people.
“Can you please set the table? I’m almost done with the food.” Minako pleads, hoping that he isn’t too tired. Minato didn’t reply, however he did start on setting the table.
As Minako served the food on the table, Minato decided to go back to his room and change. When he came back down, they started eating.
“Tough day?” Minako tries starting up a conversation with his brother. Minato nodded.
“Do you want to talk about it?” Minako asks again, and Minato shook his head no.
And they ate in silence.
/./
The next day, it didn’t seem like Minato’s mood changed. As they were going to school, Minato was quiet and didn’t seem to acknowledge her presence. Minako knows that even if her brother is acting cold, he still loves her so. But that doesn’t mean it hurts any less. All she could do was sigh and turn her volume on to the highest level, drowning out the rest of the world.
As they were walking through the school gates, some girls blocked the way, not caring if they were causing a big inconvenience to the other students.
Minako, curious with what was happening decided to lower her volume and listen.
“Akihiko-senpai is most likely coming soon! He usually arrives at this time!” One girl said, smiling huge, jumping up and down.
“O-M-G! I hope he looks our way!” Another girl squealed, and Minako swears that her eyes were shaped like a heart.
“I am like, so proud of him for winning that competish! I’m going to ask for an autograph!” A third girl chimed in, flopping her arms around.
Minako rolled her eyes. It wasn’t of any importance. Some girls just bothering a poor, helpless guy. She sighs once again, maxing out her volume and silently walking to class.
/./
This day isn’t being kind to Minako.
And that was sugarcoating it.
The teachers dumping a bunch of work on the students, just a week before the finals. The volleyball club members fighting with the leader. Obnoxious and disrespectful customers at Minako’s part-time job. Minato still not opening up.
This day was absolute shit.
After dinner, Minako decided to head straight to her bed and lock her door. She flopped herself on her bed and released a big sigh. Her chest feels tight and she feels worn out. She’s read somewhere that crying is a good way to let out your feelings, and it might make you feel a whole lot better if you let it out.
However, nothing was coming out.
She blinked a few times. Nothing.
Suddenly, the feeling of anger is overpowering her. The frustration of not being able to cry is getting to her, and she decided that the best way to go about it is to scream in to her pillow.
That still didn’t help.
She decided to grab her phone. Another thing she read is that opening up might help. She didn’t like the thought one bit, but she knows that she can trust her friends. She scrolled through her screen, Yukari? Fuuka? She decides to go through their group chat, and although they are both online, they seem to be talking about something happily and she didn’t want to dampen the mood.
Maybe Rio? But she’s got her own problem with the volleyball team. Probably best not to stress her out anymore.
Minato? She knows damn well that her brother won’t judge her no matter what, but Minato is probably asleep already.
She sighs yet again, until she comes across her number neighbor.
Hey number neighbor!
Still no reply. Maybe it really is an inactive number.
It’s perfect.
I mean, it’s still sort of opening up to somebody, right?
Plus, she won’t be bothering anybody and she’ll be able to express her frustrations.
Win-win.
She decides to start typing.
Minako: hey there number neighbor
Minako: i know this is really fucking stupid but today was really shitty
Minako: and im telling this to you because i know nobodys there
Minako: but basically what happened was the teachers decided to drop every fucking major requirement the week before exams, and then my part-time job is so demanding, both my boss and the customers
Minako: my boss kept dumping work on me and he did say he would pay me extra but it was still pretty fucking tiring
Minako: and then today the leader of my club expressed her frustrations on said club
Minako: and my brother still wont open up…
Minako: and… i don’t know… i guess it just sorta sinked in to me all of a sudden that im tired..
Minako: and sad… and lonely…
Minako: i
Minako: wow
Minako: that got too real too fast
And a tear fell down her cheek. Minako blinked a few times, and more tears came down.
She was crying. And she couldn’t stop, and she decided to let herself feel this.
She fell asleep crying.
/./
“Shit!” Minako hurriedly put her textbooks in her bag, panicking as she realizes she woke up late. She is usually the one who wakes up first, and then she will be the one who will wake up Minato, who is a heavy-sleeper.
Today, Minato was the one to wake her up, but because Minato isn’t a morning person, they are both late.
When Minako finally finished her packing her things, she put her hair in a bun and washed up herself really quickly.
“I’m really sorry, Minato! You can go on without me!” She shouts from her room, suddenly having trouble putting on her uniform.
“No.” Minato answers back simply. Minato was a man of habit and if he got used to something, he’d want to keep it that way. So going to school without Minako is going to feel weird.
“I’m done!” Minako quickly grabbed her phone and her headphones while going down the stairs quickly. “Let’s go!”
/./
They both managed to snag a seat on the train, and Minako decided to check the time on her phone. It wasn’t time yet, but they are most likely be late since the train hasn’t left yet. She notices two notifications on her phone. One from Yukari, containing the words, “wer r u and minato?” and another from an unknown number.
She decides to open it and her blood ran cold.
It was from her number neighbor.
She remembers clearly how she decided to vent to her number neighbor, thinking it was an inactive number.
It was an inactive number, right? Still in denial and thinking it was her phone glitching, she decided to open it anyway.
???: Hey, I am sorry for ignoring your message. I thought you were a prankster, but I can tell that you have been having a hard time. Prankster or not, I want to make sure if you’re okay and not doing anything bad.
???: If it helps you even just a little bit, you can continue venting to me. :) I do not mind at all. I have heard that venting to a complete stranger is much easier than venting to a friend, since there is no judgment. And that’s completely true.
???: I won’t judge you.
Minako was dumbfounded. Is this guy for real? She thought she was going to get told off by the guy, but he seems really nice.
Minako: omg im so sorry my friend told me to do this number neighbor thing
Minako: and when you didn’t reply i thought it was an inactive number
Minako: last night i was really frustrated and nothing was helping
Minako: so i decided to vent to this number because i figured no one was gonna read it anyways
Minako: i am really sorry if i disturbed u
Minako sighed to herself. The train finally started moving and she decided to play music to get her mind off of it. What she didn’t expect was that she was going to get a reply so soon.
???: It is fine.
???: I told you, I do not mind. You can vent to me anytime if it helps you. :)
Minako didn’t know how to react. This guy is too nice.
Minako: um ok
Minako: thanks ig
Minako: u can do the same if u want
Minako: u can vent to me as well
The guy stopped replying. Probably became busy. Minako sighs in relief, she is embarrassed to say the least. She probably won’t talk to the guy for a while. Or you know, ever. That is probably it, she does not need some random stranger knowing about her problems. She decides to spend the rest of the ride listening to music and looking at the passing scenery.
/./
After school, Minako, Yukari and Fuuka decided to go to Chagall Café once again. Yukari suggested a ‘study group’ to help each other understand unclear terms and also a way to finish their projects. Fuuka and Minako agreed that it was beneficial.
After ordering their drinks and desserts, Fuuka started teaching Yukari the recent Math topic. Yukari couldn’t wrap her head around it and no matter how hard she tried to follow the discussion, she still couldn’t understand. Minako understood the lesson very well, so she was finishing one of their other projects instead.
“Okay, so first you have to write the given…” Fuuka started, while Yukari stared at the problem.
Minako was getting her things ready, when her phone vibrated. She opened it to see a message from her number neighbor. He still replied?
???: Hey, sorry for not replying. Today has been hectic.
???: But thank you! I’ll be sure to keep that in mind. :)
???: How are you feeling today, though?
Is this guy… actually concerned? Minako knows that it is rude that she is questioning and may or may not be judging the guy when she absolutely knows nothing about him. But same goes for the other guy, they do not know anything about her and yet they are concerned?
Minako: im okay today
Minako: thanks for asking
Minako: hbu?
As she finished setting up her things, she got a reply. That was quick.
???: That’s great. I am glad you are feeling better. :)
???: I am good, too. Just a little tired. But I can manage.
Minako stares at the message. Is she supposed to reply to that? Nevermind that, she is supposed to be studying right now. She decides to instead text Minato to eat outside already, as she will be home late. And then she put her phone in her bag and concentrate on her project.
/./
When Minako finally got home, the house was eerily quiet. There were no lights on either. “Minato?” She called out, no answer. She puts down her things and went to knock at his door.
“Minato?”
Still no reply. She tried opening the door, but it was locked. She went back down and checked to see if his shoes were here, and it wasn’t. He wasn’t home yet. Where was he?
Minako tried calling his number, but there was no answer. She started texting his friends, Junpei, Kenji and Kazushi. But none of them knew where he was. She was starting to get a little worried.
No, screw that. She IS worried as hell. Where could he have gone to?
She decided to get her jacket and find him herself but just before she could do that, the front door opened.
It was Minato.
She felt relieved, but at the same time she was very angry.
“And just where have you been?” Minako tried to stay calm, but her tone was harsh. Minato flinched.
“With the boys.” Minato answered, not looking at her and removing his shoes.
“Lies. They told me they didn’t know where you were.”
Minato finished with his shoes and walked past by her, seemingly ignoring her words.
“Minato, I am talking to you.”
“What?” Minato answered indifferently.
“What? What?! What do you mean ‘what’? I was worried sick! You didn’t answer any of my calls, and your friends didn’t know where you were! Not to mention that it’s late, who knows what kind of criminal could be lurking around the streets at this moment!” Minako said exasperatedly. It frustrated and angered her that her brother doesn’t seem to be thinking about what she was feeling.
“Calm down, I got home safely didn’t I? It’s fine. You’re worrying over nothing.” Minato proceeded to go upstairs to his room, not daring to look back at his sister.
“Minato Arisato, come back down here! I am not done talking to you!” Minako shouted, but it fell on deaf ears as he did not come back. Minako felt frustrated and angry and sad… She stormed into her room. Her chest was tightening and she did not like it one bit. She tried screaming into her pillow, but it did not ease her pain.
She faced up and stared at the ceiling. What was going on with her brother? Is there a problem at school? Is he being bullied? Was he having a hard time? They were in different classrooms, but even so it was just next to eachother. Yet somehow it feels like she still cannot reach him.
She unknowingly reached into her phone and started typing. She didn’t want to do this, but it feels like her hands has a mind of their own.
Minako: hey number neighbor
Minako: are u there?
Minako feels weak, vulnerable, and pathetic at this moment, but she doesn’t know what else she can do. After a minute, her phone vibrated.
???: Yes, I am.
???: What’s wrong? Did something happen?
Minako: i just
Minako: im sorry for disturbing u once again
Minako: but nothings calming me down again
Minako: i thought today was a nice day because i just hung out with my friends
Minako: but when i got home, my brother wasn’t there
Minako: i got worried and started calling
Minako: he didn’t answer so i texted his friends and even they didn’t know where he was
Minako: i was just about to go out until he came home
Minako: and i asked him where he was, wanting an explanation
Minako: but he just ignored me
Minako: and it fucking hurts because i was worried sick and he didn’t even try talking to me
Minako: im so fucking frustrated and angry and sad
Minako: its like i didn’t matter
Minako: he used to share a lot with me, i am his bestfriend
Minako: well, was, as it seems like now
When Minako finished, she put her phone down and stared at the ceiling. She started contemplating whether she did something to make her brother act like this. When she heard her phone vibrating, she quickly got it.
???: Hey, don’t jump into conclusions. Although I understand where your frustration is coming from. It is valid.
Minako: if its valid they why didn’t my brother talk to me???
???: Perhaps your brother is going through something, and he isn’t ready to talk about it. He just needs some time to figure it out himself and then he will approach you.
Minako: then what should i do????
???: Just continue loving and supporting him. Let him know you are there. And when the time comes, he will approach you.
Minako: do u think i scared him off when i got angry at him
???: I believe not. You were only being a concerned sister. And I am certain he knows that too. Like I said, what you felt is valid. It is normal, I would probably be the same if I was in your position.
Minako suddenly started crying. She closed her eyes and cried. After a few minutes, she decided to reply back.
Minako: thank u number neighbor
Minako: hey is it ok if i call u by another name or something
Minako: number neighbor is too long and it feels a bit weird
???: Alright. What do you suggest?
Minako: well when i call u by a name then u will most likely call me by a name too
Minako: is it ok if it’s a code name or a nickname
Minako: i don’t feel comfortable saying my name
???: That is fine by me. :) What kind of name will it be then?
Minako: is it ok if i call u by my favorite thing
???: And that would be?
Minako: headphones.
???: Fine by me, pancake.
Minako was surprised. Why the sudden endearment?
Minako: im sorry what?
???: Pancake. You will be calling me by your favorite thing, I’ll be calling you by my favorite thing too. :)
Minako: oh
???: Why? Is it weird? Do you want me to change?
Minako: um no
Minako: its fine
Minako: just surprised
???: Alright, pancake.
Minako couldn’t explain why she was suddenly blushing. It’s just their favorite thing. Nothing more. She decided to shake it off and proceeds to change their contact name into ‘Headphones’.
Minako: im feeling a lot better now
Minako: thank u again headphones
Headphones: I am glad I was able to help. :)
Minako: im gonna sleep now
Minako: nanite
Minako: ttyl
Headphones: Sleep well, pancake. :)
#maybe ooc#sorry about that#persona 3#persona#shin megami tensei#atlus#akihiko sanada#minako arisato#hamuko arisato#minato arisato#yukari takeba#fuuka yamagishi#junpei iori#rio iwasaki#fluff#slight angst#akihiko fic#akihiko fluff#p3p#psp#persona3portable#videogame#number neighbor#textfic#akihiko#minako#akihamu#akihamu fic#akihamu fluff#femc
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f2l with Song Mingi♡
Pairing: Mingi X Reader
RoommateAU, (and like High SchoolAU in the beginning and kinda CollegeAU?)
Tags: cursing, shitty attempts at comedy, fluff, kinda sorta suggestive?, ig drug use and drinking?(booze and weed)
Words: 2.5k
A/N: Okay so, this is my first bullet scenario thing? and its weird...like this is so weird but I tried XD it ended up this weird mix between bullet scenario and oneshot fic and i-
...............all I can do is practice and try to get better but yeah. SO HERES THIS :D (im srry don hate me T-T)
-Finding Your Best Friend-
this bb would be the best-est friend you would have in this world
probably why you fell for him in the first place, but let's not get to ahead of ourselves
you guys met freshman year of high school
your guys' mutual friend Yunho is really the reason why
you just moved to town, and since said town was small, it was clear to you that everybody knew everybody else
you felt pretty lonely on the first day because of that
second day of freshman year is where is all started to come together
you were looking for a nice spot to sit and have your lunch outside because you didn't want to look like the weird loner person eating by themselves in silence
you found a pretty spot under a big tree near the track field, you put a random cool cake making tutorial on your phone and ate your lunch
the video was at a part where they were placing intricate designs in frosting all over the cake when you hear "Whoa, that is so cool!"
you jump about 3 feet in the air and immediately gather up your phone and get up to spin around to see who interrupted your quiet time
a young man, not sure his grade, with peach colored hair and a worried expression on his face, raises his hands in a surrender pose
'okay but what the hell was he doing, watching my phone behind the tree?'
well reader, we'll never know
"I'm really sorry! I didn't mean to scare you that bad! Really, I am so so so sorry!"
you, still in shock, just nod at him
now you're both just standing in front of each other
not saying anything
....well
this is awkward
"I-I'm Yunho...by the way."
you clear your throat, not sure why, nervous habit
"[Y/N].."
"So, uh... Haven't seen you around here before.."
once you explained you were new, and new to the town in general. There was no escape.
you were now best friends with the giant teddy bear and there was nothing you could do about it
yunho immediately took you under his wing and showed you around the campus. Then the town itself after school was out.
but Ro this seems to be turning into a yunho x reader fic/ bullet scenario
stfu I'm getting there
what did this turn into even
so now you and Yunho are bffs
enter giant teddy bear 2.0
you and yunho are hanging out at lunch, it's become a usual for the past two weeks
and Yunhos other bff is becoming sus about why Yunho hasn't been eating with him at lunch or doesn't seem to have as much time after school for him
that's when giant teddy bear 2.0 (if you don't know that its Mingi then idek-) finds his bestie with some random chick
a really adorable random chick
"So this is where you have been?"
you and Yunho start, not expecting someone to find your guys' spot
Also, deja vu, amiright?
"Oh, hey Mingi!" Yunho greets the tall dirty blonde haired teddy bear
And you're totally not sitting there thinking, 'holy shit, he is...wow.'
and that's how it all started
he stayed and introduced himself and you hit it off just as well as you and yunho did
maybe even better..
he started showing up everyday, at the what was dubbed 'The Cool Kids Spot™️' by you all, with yunho
even tho we all know you guys were NOT the cool kids
then it went to him being at the spot before everyone showed up
so he could see you first
then it turned into him meeting you up after class so you both could grab your food together and meet up Yunho at The Spot™️
before you could even realize it, he became your person
you were the first person he ran up to and hugged after him and Yunhos dance group took home 1st place at a competition
he was the first person you called when you were told that your poem won an award
you were the person he'd come to if he needed any kind of advice
and he was the first person you went to if you needed to get out of your head or your anxiety was getting to you
the high school years went by so fast
a lot changed
but what never changed was Mingi, he may have grown
and damn he grew
but he was your constant (and yes, yunho too, we can't forget yunho bro)
-Knowing They're The One-
high school came and went
Mingi and Yunho were accepted by a prestigious performing arts school
you, however, were going to just a regular college
luckily, both schools weren't terribly far from each other
which is why, instead of suffering in dorms, you and Mingi decided to get a apartment together, not far from both schools
yunhos ass stayed with his parents because they live like right next to the school, lucky hoe
you all still make time for each other
but you and Mingi prefer to stay in, order takeout and watch random stuff on YouTube
whenever you or Mingi went out it was always together (unless it was classes)
Grocery shopping? Together. Doctors appointment? Together. Girls night? Together. Guys night? Together.
"So, you must be suffering right now" his friend Yeosang said to him on a rare guys night that didn't involve you.
Mingi looked at Yeosang perplexed, ignoring whatever Wooyoung was talking to him about
"What are you talking about?"
"You and [Y/N] are literally always together, the fact she isn't here surprises me."
Mingi laughed. "We're not always together."
A cacophony of "LIES" and "BULLSHIT" filled the air as all of Mingi friends called him out on his bullshit
Mingi could feel his face heating up
"W-well, so what if we are! Were best friends AND roommates."
"And lovers~" his friend San whispered in his ear from behind and laughed, dancing away before Mingi could hit him
"We're not together!" Mingi exclaimed, rolling his eyes.
"But you want to be."
Mingi turned to look at the owner of the voice. It was Yunho, leaning against the entrance of the kitchen everyone was gathered in
He was looking at Mingi with a smirk
Mingi knew Yunho knew how he felt about you
and not because he told him
well...he kinda did
FLASHBACK TIME
it was your guys' high school graduation
more specifically, the night of, and you were all partying and yunhos house
celebrating the fact that you all were officially adults now
lol you thought
and what better way to celebrate that than with underage drinking
be safe kids, don't drink irresponsibly
and Mingi. Got. Wasted.
by the end of the night, he was crying (and maybe puked once or twice...) in Yunhos arms about how beautiful you were, and how amazing and talented you were
wouldn't shut up about how soft and perfect you feel in his arms when he hugs you or vice versa
"She is my soulmate." After every other sentence mentioning how perfect you are
but wait, where were you while Mingi was crying and puking you ask?
That night you met Yeonjun, who is now one of your closest friends
at first, a friend of Wooyoungs, who you all became friends with junior year, along with his best friend San
Yeonjun, who went to a different school across town, was invited along by Woo and San
you and Yeonjun hit it off so well, drinking and laughing, and talking about how much he loves his boyfriend Soobin, and maybe you drunkingly going on about how amazing Mingi is
however, Mingi didn't know Yeonjun
and what he saw that night was you, enjoying your time with someone who wasn’t him, laughing at jokes that weren't his, hanging all over someone who could never know you as well as he did (and that totally wasn't the reason that Mingi drank like 2 bottles of straight vodka, not at all)
and at that moment
he knew
he fucked up
he was in love with you
OKAY END OF FLASHBACK
Mingi wasn't sure what to say
he could deny it sure, but he knew it was useless
not after every person in the room gave him a knowing smirk after Yunhos comment
“She doesn't-”
“Oh, whatever. you guys are literally already a couple. And dont even try to deny that. If she was here right now, she’d probably be on your lap and you two would be sitting in some corner of the house whispering some weird drunk lovey shit to each other.”
well...
Mingi really didn't have a argument for that
that night he came home sober
but you didn't know that until months later when he told you he wasn't actually drunk
anyways when he got home you were sitting in the living room
music playing away on YouTube while you type away on your laptop
you didn't hear him come in, softly singing along to the song under your breath
he stood there for a moment and just..looked at you
your hair was a mess
you had on the same clothes as yesterday
probably haven't done a skincare routine in months
you were the most beautiful person he had ever seen in his life
he felt so much love swell in his chest
hes known it for a while now but at that moment all that was going on in his head was
“That’s my soulmate. I love her. I love her so much.”
“Hey.”
he wasn't sure if he had said it loud enough but apparently he had because you flinched and turned to see who the ‘intruder’ was
“Oh, Mingi! Shit, you scared me...” you laughed. “How was guys night?”
He made his was over to sit on the couch as you told him how your paper was coming along and then waited for him to answer your question
he sat for a good minute not saying anything
“Mingi?”
he looked at you
“you okay hun?” you asked, placing your hand on his cheek
and then he kissed you
it was so quick, you had no time to register that it was happening at all
and he left just as quickly
slamming the door to his bedroom and leaving you flustered and panicked
-So....Lovers?-
the morning after the kiss was the most awkward moment that you and Mingi had ever had
luckily it didn't last long at all
you two were silent, awkwardly making breakfast
then Mingi busted out with “Man, I’m so hungover! I barely remember anything from last night!”
“Do...do you remember anything from when you came home?”
“No, to be honest, I don't even remember coming home...”
-cue forced laughter-
-cue Mingi not trying to be disappointed when you looked relieved-
he asked you if anything happened and tried not to feel sad about the fact you were going on about how nothing happened and he just came home and went to bed
why wouldn't you mention the kiss? maybe everyone had it wrong, you didn't feel the same. why else would you avoid it?
but everything went back to...normal
you two would cuddle every night on the couch
you showed up to every guys night like usual
(there may or may not have been more knowing smirks thrown Mingis way)
he showed up to the rare girls nights you'd have with your (like 2) girlfriends
(they literally just consisted of everyone chilling in some secluded spot and sparking up a blunt or two and bull-shittng)
but everything wasn't normal
because even though it lasted 0.0002 seconds long
Mingi cannot stop thinking about that kiss
neither can you for that matter
that's when you confided in your bestie Yeonjun
who knew all about your love for your other bestie
you went to Yeonjuns one Saturday afternoon without mingi
its been a month since the kiss and Yeonjun is only disappointed in the fact that you didn't tell him sooner
his solution was simple, just tell him how you feel
its so god damn obvious he feels the same
but who are you to do the simple thing right?
so what do you do?
you go with Soobins idea
and :) you:) go:) on:) a:) blind:) date:) with one of soobin and yeonjuns friends:)))))))
well
at least you were supposed to..
the night comes when you were supposed to meet at a nice cafe with their friend Beomgyu
you. were. lookin. FIRE BABY
slaayyyyy
you were in the kitchen grabbing your keys
and maybe prolonging the fact that your going out with someone who isn't MIngi
when Mingi walked out to heat himself up a noodle cup
and maybe one for you too because he didn't think you were going anywhere and was going to ask if you wanted to chill in his room and play mario kart
his jaw DROPPED when he saw you
he felt like he was just kicked in the gut, all breath left his lungs
and he may or may not have gotten an instant boner but-
he cleared his throat to get your attention
“You look...nice.” wow, Mingi, smooth
“O-oh, thanks, um... ill be back later okay?”
when Mingi asked where you'll be going and you said you had a blind date, he swears to this day he blacked out for a moment
next thing he knew he had you pushed against the counter
“Mingi-”
“No.”
“w-what..”
“You don't have a date.”
“But I do-”
then his lips were pressed against yours
and unlike the first, this one lasted a hell of a lot longer than 0.0002 seconds
it wasn't fireworks or butterflies or a sudden realization of unconditional love
it was rough and messy and filled with so many emotions including relief that your love for each other can finally blossom
you didn't say a word to each other when you parted
you stared at each other for a while, panting with big smiles on your faces
once your breathing returned to normal you gently pushed him back so you weren't pressed against the counter anymore
“I’m going to change in PJ's.”
Mingis smile lit up his whole face. “But I thought you had a date..”
“No, I don't.” you kissed his cheek and left to change.
-YES LOVERS FINALLY-
so you guys never really sat down and were like ‘hey so are we...?’
because you both knew you just....were
after that night you guys started acting like you had been dating for months
it was just like before
because of course, like always, Yunho was right
you guys already acted like you were dating
now kisses and a lot more were added to the mix
which just made everything 1000x better
everyone knew it was just a matter of time
you loved waking up to his arms wrapped around your waist and him softly snoring in your ear
he loved waking up to you peppering kisses all over his collar bones and neck
your loved bloomed♡
A/N pt2: Im sorry if the end seems so rushed as well, I started running out of steam and my mind blanked but I didn't want to prolong this and never post it...like i do with everything...
Thank you for reading!
#song mingi#ateez#ateez scenarios#mingi fluff#mingi scenarios#mingi x reader#ateez x reader#kpop fanfiction#kpop#kpop fluff#ateez fluff#8s place#ateez fanfiction#mingi friends to lovers#mingi f2l#ateez f2l#mingi fanfic#kpop fanfic#ateez au#mingi oneshot#song mingi oneshot#ateez oneshot
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SNNADBW wait no i meant to say their biology TEACHER 😭,,,, sorry i have that horrible habit of accidentally skipping words in sentences when i get excited ajdbsjndk
ajdjsdnk you’re too nice and sweet to me i swear->\\\\<
i won’t lie to you, this week has honestly been ✨hell✨ and there’s like,, so much i wanna tell and show you but my mind’s gone blank o_O ig to start, i’ve been hurting.. school’s been driving me NUTS and i’ve lost count of how many breakdowns i’ve had sjdjsk. and having to go through it alone.. didn’t really help..
okay i wasn’t completely alone, but i still felt kinda bad cuz i thought i might’ve upset you and for a split second i thought you,,, idk, forgot about me or something.. that was just me being dramatic but you get my point sjdbk 💀 and my surgery is in eight days so that isn’t helping either :/
sorry to shift the conversation in a sorta sad way, i just needed to get it out there after holding it in for so long.. by the way,, how would you feel about a possible face reveal?? 👀 mainly cuz there’s this meme i’ve been DYING to send u and i want attention so- 😽 ajsjsjdjk im kidding,,, kinda,,
- 🧋
OHH. you’re good aha, it was funny.
and mm, too nice? i don’t know... i just like making you happy. and flustered. if i’m making you happy then i’m doing my job, yeah?
it’s not.. totally my place to say such, since i don’t know the entirety of your situation. but i think it’s okay that you take a break from school, yeah? even if it’s just an hour or so, it’s okay to wind down, relax, maybe try to forget about it for a bit. this covid situation is stressful as is and i don’t think it’s fair to put so many school expectations on top of that. that and, well, those breakdowns... gosh. i don’t know. i hope you’ve at the very least been drinking water, eating. if you feel like you need it- or even just generally want it- it’s okay to pamper yourself, or at the very least treat yourself gently.
i’ll be real, i’m not the best at consistently being there. and i’m sorry for disappearing on you like that. if you’re feeling bad you’re always, and i mean always, allowed to hmu regardless of how active i’m being or whatever. if it means being there to support you and comfort you, i’ll come through.
and, hey, you don’t have to apologize. if you need to vent, i get that. about that face reveal... you can, if you’d like!- as long as you’re not feeling some sort of pressure to, then i’m game. ajahjahs, i’ll give you whatever you attention you want.. that and well it’s the meme queen coming through again, yeah?
#shin*asks#shin*person*🧋#breakdown#tw breakdown#breakdown tw#breakdown mention#surgery#tw surgery#surgery tw#surgery mention#it's the mod speaking when i say that i hope you're doing okay. and that this next week will be so much better
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pt 2 to it’s over isn’t it
(Only because I love them too much to see the suffer)
Regulus lived out his adult life and is now in a retiring home where he watches Disney movies with the teenagers who volunteer here. Regulus likes it a lot. He’s used to being on his own anyway. Sirius died a couple of years back and Remus died a couple of months after that. Regulus likes to think that Remus just could not live in a world where Sirius Black was not in. Regulus was still here and it was as nice as being alone could be. Well, he wasn’t as alone as he makes himself out to be. Harry and Ginny and their children would often visit him on the weekends and sometimes Ron and Hermione would tag along as well. Today was Saturday and in came the Potters. Ginny said she would take the kids to eat while Harry talked to Regulus. Which Regulus thought was odd, but didn’t question it.
“Papa! Hey how are you doing?”
“Harry oh darling I’m fine. How are you”
Harry sat dragged a chair to be by Regulus bed and was looking pretty serious. Regulus frowned and took Harry’s hand. Harry smiled a bit before a frown took over again.
“There’s just this one thing I need to ask you. I’ve had this question since I was 16.”
“Ok...whats the question Harry?”
Harry took a deep breath before looking into Regulus eyes. Harry’s eyes were filled with sadness and this whole interaction wasn’t making sense to Regulus. What was happening?
“Did you have a crush on my biological dad? It’s just the way you talk about my birth dad is the same way I talk about Ginny, and the same way Ron talks about Hermione.” Regulus can’t hold the truth from Harry anymore. Regulus doesn’t know when he’s gonna die but he knows it soon. So he gives him an answer.
“That’s a...tricky thing to answer. Well I guess you could say yes. We dated for a year before in joined the death eaters by my parents will. Once I came to my senses and fled it had been to late. Your father was with your mother.” Regulus already felt the tears and but he shook them away and sat up a bit squeezing Harry’s hand. “I was too late and I saw how happy Lily made James and I couldn’t come between that. He much happier with Lily then he was with me. So I just became his close friend. It’s pathetic i know, but I just wanted to feel close to him even though he wasn’t mine anymore. I wanted him to be happy more than anything in this world...I still do.” Harry had tears running down his cheeks and he leaned forward planting his elbows into the mattress.
“Regulus Arcturus Black you are not pathetic...you’re in love.” Regulus rolled his eyes out of habit but Harry kept going. “ You loved my dad so much you let him be happy with someone else. You’re so strong. I don’t think I’d ever be able to just see Ginny happy with someone else everyday.”
“Be thankful you never have to deal with that. It’s the worse type of pain. One that for me never went away.”
“Is that why you never dated anyone? My whole life I’ve never seen you dating anyone.” Regulus laughed because merlin knows he’s tried.
“I’ve been on some yes...none of them felt right. Ugh I must sound like Snape going on about Lily” Harry snickered but quickly assured Regulus he’s nothing like snape.
“Im glad you told me papa” Regulus smiled and Ginny returned with the kids and everything was alright.
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It was Sunday morning and the whole family was sitting at the table eating their breakfast and talking. The phone rang and Ginny went to answer it.
“Hello is this the Potter residence?”
“Yes it is who is this?”
“Oh sorry this is the retiring home your relative is at a mister....Regulus Black?”
“Oh yes! That’s my father in law”
“Yes, sadly he passed away last night. I’m so sorry for your loss.”
“Oh...thank you” Ginny hung up the phone, and quickly wiped the tears from her eyes. Harry would depend on her during this hard time and she needed to be strong for him. She decided to tell Harry and then they’d tell the kids together. She sat back down and said the call was from some kid playing a telephone prank.
After breakfast Ginny pulled Harry into their bedroom and sat him on the bed.
“Ginny? What’s wrong?” She sat down on his lap and wrapped her his shoulders.
“Harry the call at breakfast wasn’t from a prank caller.”
“Ok...who was it from then?”
“...the retirement home”
“Oh did we forgot something while visiting pa?”
“No honey...Regulus died last night” Harry got pale and was stiff. The tears already welling up in his eyes.
“He died? No...they’re lying” Ginny pulled him into a hug rubbing soothing circles into his back.
“Why would they lie about something like that love?”
“I don’t know! They just have to be lying he can’t....he can’t be dead. He can’t be dead he’s my dad” Harry wrapped his arms around Ginny’s waist hugging her back and it was such a tight hug but Ginny didn’t dare say anything.
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Regulus fell asleep in the retirement home and woke up in a white room. A weird lady with short blue hair showed him around and dropped him off at some weird common place. There were so many people around him he was a bit overwhelmed. He missed Harry he knew Harry was going to be devastated once he found out. A weird parting was formed and he saw Harry sobbing and Ginny hugging and comforting him.
“Oh don’t cry darling please. I love you so much Harry so please don’t cry too much.”
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Afterlife wasn’t so bad James found it kinda freeing no more stupid war. He did terribly miss the people who were still alive. He missed Sirius like crazy. He wanted to be able to raise his son with his wife and for baby Harry to have a nice family. That dream basically went to shit when both James and Lily died. They watched over Harry from above and were pleasantly surprised when Regulus took Harry in. James missed Regulus a lot...a lot more than he should for being just friends with him.
Lily and James were both looking down at their own funerals when they both heard Regulus love confession about James to Remus. Lily was sad for a bit because she knew that James was still in love with Regulus. She knew and she wanted James to be happy so she let him go. They’re still the best of friends no bad blood between them.
James was just walking around aimlessly as one does when they’re bored when he paused. He heard something familiar but couldn’t place it. James being the gryffindor he is went after the sound and found a man sitting and looking down. He was muttering to himself and was shaking.
“...please don’t cry darling everything’s gonna be ok Harry”
James’ eyes went wide as the realization struck.
“...Regulus?” Regulus turned quickly because he could never forget that voice.
“James” for a second it was just them standing there looking at each other like the other wasn’t real. James couldnt take it and pulled him into a hug burrying his nose into Regulus’ neck to just breathe him in. Hot tears landed on him and Regulus was hugging him really tightly.
“Baby shhh it’s ok you’re alright now.” The crying seemed to increase by that sentence and James could do nothing more than say comforting words and rub his back.
“baby? what happened to lily?”
“Ah the whole death do us part kinda took its course now we’re apart as in not dating not married. We kinda realized we aren’t a match for each other.”
“Oh well in that case...”
James smirked his hands rose up to cradle regulus’ head in his hands.
“in that case?”
“I’m in love with you have been for a while.” James laughed squeezing Regulus face together.
“I can’t believe you didn’t tell me sooner Reggie because I love you too...I don’t think I’ve ever stopped loving you” Regulus looked so happy and he was. Regulus was insanely happy because James loves him. James loves Regulus.
“Can I kiss you?” James nodded and so they kissed and Regulus never felt as happy as he does right now. Who knew that dying would get him and James back together.
#HAHAHAHA#written at 3 am#james potter#harry potter#jegulus#sirius black#remus lupin#regulus black#wolfstar#marauders era#lilyevans#lgbt#lily evans#fanfiction
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tw // ed
havent been on tumblr for a hot moment. today was hard so i wrote some things down. i am recovering and writing makes me make sense of everything im going through. if youre alone or in need of a friend, dont be afraid to dm F(20)
With pain there is a release, popping a pimple, itching a bite cutting into your tension. I haven’t cut myself in a couple years, its something I revert back too on occasions of stress and discomfort. I like the release after the pain. Ironically it almost always clams me down. Makes my thoughts into coherent sentences that I say to my therapist. Even when I’m doing okay, i'm not really. I haven’t had a very mentally stable life and what i think is mental stability is just mania and being addicted to exercise. I havent always had an unhealthy relationship with food. When I was growing up i was a normal size for a child but when i started going to school i got chubby. I was bullied for my weight most of my life and when i got older i was told my friends and family i would be so much more attractive if i lost weight. This was all the water my garden needed for my disorder to grow. I must have been 9 or 10. I have always been hyper aware of bodies, mine and others. Being POC as well as having body image issues you notice everything. How your hair is darker, thicker. A shrub coating your arms and legs. Being blonde and having leg hair ever hurt nobody but being dark haired meant you were called “a man” by your peers.
You were the first girl in your class to get razor burns and the last one who got a boyfriend. You started trying to lose weight before you knew what balanced diet was. Ended up eating in secret, where you’d tear yourself lim from lim later. You started self harming at 13 and wondered by it felt so familiar. You're teachers told you, you were looking for attention, when you were looking for someone to talk too. You never spoke about anything ever again. Swallowing every word on an empty stomach. You went to highschool for a fresh start but your mind followed you there. They had a gym which you would go to three times a day when things got really bad. You forgot that a healthy habit doesnt come with a side of obsession. And you cried and cried until you forgave yourself and kissed your aching body. The only love you had was for the foods you couldnt eat and the shit you snorted up your nose. You liked yourself better when you were high and unable to stomach anything but water and coffee, you liked yourself better when food was the last thing on your mind and being thin was your first thought in the mornings. When things were bad you were good, you wrote everyday, went to the gym morning noon and night, ate like french model, but you were a husk of the women you were supposed to be. Now you just eat because you were told not too, because its comforting, because it reminds you of your childhood, because you need it to survive, because you dont know how to stop, how to let go, how to get back to normal. You have only ever known to extremes and now everything is crashing and burning and dying. And you still are the fat girl from primary school, throwing away everything to be thin, to be thin, to be thin.
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